9.30.2005
Mood of the Moment: tired, but giddy anyway...
Music of the Moment: Green Day - Wake me up When September ends
Yea, I've been kinda slack about blogging lately. My appologies. It has sort of been a cross between the fact that I haven't had much time, and the fact that I generally have 3 things to talk about : Steve, School, and Work...and, well, work is work....I'm pretty much being trained to be head projectionist...fun fun. School is school...I've got an annoying stalker guy, named David. He wouldn't be annoying if it wasn't for the fact that he knows the routes I take for all of my class changes, and he knows when my breaks are, and he always happens to run into me whenever possible....and he invades the heck out of my personal bubble, which is reserved for a select few. Speaking of the people allowed to be in my personal bubble, Steve and I have somewhat given up on speaking for ourselves when the other is around. Simply because I almost always answer for him and vice versa...not that I mind a bit. Conveniently enough our schedules pretty much match up for the next few days...and we both work a double on Saturday, which means break together. That makes me happy, because then they cant get mad at us for being too close...at least for that hour. Hehe, also, Steve is discovering how difficult it can be to quit smoking. He was thoroughly convinced that he could drop it cold turkey, and I encouraged him, but I fully expected it to be hard....and it is....but I have faith in him. I mean, it took me like 4 tries, and I didn't smoke as much as he did...so yea, if you pray, pray for him.
On to other things....I finally have enough money to get my crappy car fixed. Woo Hoo!!! It happifies me. Then again it really doesn't take much to happify me currently. It's cool. My friend Jason asked me the other day out of nowhere if I was happy...like, with life in general...and I thought about it for a minute and realized that for the first time in like forever, I can honestly say yes...and I'm not saying happy as in I'm doing fine...I mean I'm happy....I'm like giggly all the time...it's crazy. I mean yea, not everything is all perfect, but nothing really brings me down. I guess you can say I'm back on my feet and such. I'm not going to be all school girl-ish and say it is all because of Steve, but he really is a big part of it. It also has to do with the way work and school are going, my car will soon be on the road...all sorts of things. Hehe...so yea...
Oh, by the way....Jennifer, if you read this, I promise I have been meaning to send you an email, but my thing decided that it hates me and wont let me sign in...and I haven't really had the time to work on it, but when I do you are first on my correspondance list...hehe...
anyway, I'm about to go get ready for work now, I like to go early so that I can hang out downstairs w/Stephen before I actually have to work...I might blog either tonight or tomorrow...
Much Love,
DeAnna
Music of the Moment: Green Day - Wake me up When September ends
Yea, I've been kinda slack about blogging lately. My appologies. It has sort of been a cross between the fact that I haven't had much time, and the fact that I generally have 3 things to talk about : Steve, School, and Work...and, well, work is work....I'm pretty much being trained to be head projectionist...fun fun. School is school...I've got an annoying stalker guy, named David. He wouldn't be annoying if it wasn't for the fact that he knows the routes I take for all of my class changes, and he knows when my breaks are, and he always happens to run into me whenever possible....and he invades the heck out of my personal bubble, which is reserved for a select few. Speaking of the people allowed to be in my personal bubble, Steve and I have somewhat given up on speaking for ourselves when the other is around. Simply because I almost always answer for him and vice versa...not that I mind a bit. Conveniently enough our schedules pretty much match up for the next few days...and we both work a double on Saturday, which means break together. That makes me happy, because then they cant get mad at us for being too close...at least for that hour. Hehe, also, Steve is discovering how difficult it can be to quit smoking. He was thoroughly convinced that he could drop it cold turkey, and I encouraged him, but I fully expected it to be hard....and it is....but I have faith in him. I mean, it took me like 4 tries, and I didn't smoke as much as he did...so yea, if you pray, pray for him.
On to other things....I finally have enough money to get my crappy car fixed. Woo Hoo!!! It happifies me. Then again it really doesn't take much to happify me currently. It's cool. My friend Jason asked me the other day out of nowhere if I was happy...like, with life in general...and I thought about it for a minute and realized that for the first time in like forever, I can honestly say yes...and I'm not saying happy as in I'm doing fine...I mean I'm happy....I'm like giggly all the time...it's crazy. I mean yea, not everything is all perfect, but nothing really brings me down. I guess you can say I'm back on my feet and such. I'm not going to be all school girl-ish and say it is all because of Steve, but he really is a big part of it. It also has to do with the way work and school are going, my car will soon be on the road...all sorts of things. Hehe...so yea...
Oh, by the way....Jennifer, if you read this, I promise I have been meaning to send you an email, but my thing decided that it hates me and wont let me sign in...and I haven't really had the time to work on it, but when I do you are first on my correspondance list...hehe...
anyway, I'm about to go get ready for work now, I like to go early so that I can hang out downstairs w/Stephen before I actually have to work...I might blog either tonight or tomorrow...
Much Love,
DeAnna
9.28.2005
Mood of the Moment: Happy
Music of the Moment: none, I dont feel like messing with it...I'm about to go to bed...
Ok, I really would write about my day...but I really just wan to type Steve's name over and over again....so I shall spare all of you te pain...just know that it was a good day, and a better night...*smiles*...I happy...
Much Love,
DeAnna
"Frankly my dear,
I dont give a damn..."
Music of the Moment: none, I dont feel like messing with it...I'm about to go to bed...
Ok, I really would write about my day...but I really just wan to type Steve's name over and over again....so I shall spare all of you te pain...just know that it was a good day, and a better night...*smiles*...I happy...
Much Love,
DeAnna
"Frankly my dear,
I dont give a damn..."
9.26.2005
Mood of the Moment: hard to explain
Mood of the Moment: Three Doors Down - Let me go
Ok, so I just figured I'd outright say that I have never turned my back on anyone, and I never intend to, just because I firmly believe that people can change. Having said that, there are some people (one in particular) that had better be QUITE glad about the fact that I am so forgiving. Not everyone is that way. Most people will eventually turn away. If you treat people like shit, just because it helps you get what you want...if you take peoples trust, love, hopes, and feelings and play with them like your own little yo-yo, just to toss it aside when a more interesting toy comes along, and then expect to pick it up as if nothing ever happened later on down the road...when it becomes useful again...then people will get tired of it. If you always say whatever seems most profitable to you, but then never back it up...people will get tired of it. You may not mean to be an absolute bastard to the people around you, you may not do it intentionally to hurt anyone else...you dont have to....you just do it to help yourself. That is what is important....that you are happy....and people must understand what you have to do to be happy, right???
Bullshit...
If you hurt people...you hurt people...period. If you live your life to serve only yourself, regardless of others and their feelings, eventually it will come back and bite you right on the ass. Any fear that you may have of being alone will come true. That is inevitable. I know that if you are one of the people that I am talking to, then you are not going to believe me right now. You wont believe me until it actually happens. But just know, that if there is a moment in your life when you are broken and alone, I dont care who you are, I turn my back on no one. If you happen to be one of those people that I am talking to then I may be extremely pissed at you....I may say "I told you so" until you are sick of hearing it... but I turn my back on no one. Granted, I hope nobody has to go through that sort of thing in order to change....but there are some people that I just think are headed straight for it....fast. So yea...
Whew.....sorry about that....I promise I am actually in a good mood...(mostly thanks to Steve)...but something happened last night that just sort of set those thoughts into motion, and I had to get them out. I am good now. Anyway...I didn't do much today. I went to work....worked....hung out and bugged Steve while he worked...then I came home and talked to Jennifer, then Steve called....even though it was not time for him to be off work...turns out that just after i left, he asked to go home early because he "wasn't feeling well"...so that he could come home and call me. So I talked to him for a quite good while, then I talked online a bit.....helped dear Bracken with some Calc. homework over the internet (brain now = pile of goo)....good stuff....then I started typing in me blog...and now I am here. Oh, by the way, please forgive the earlier language...I was a bit....um....flustered...so yea. Anywho, I am off to chillax now....probrobly going to bed soon...but yea...I'm going to the theatre tomorrow at 4 to....ummm....meet Steve...imagine that....hehe...so yea....I dont know when I'll be home....I may or may not blog. I dont know...until then.....
Much Love,
DeAnna
Oh well,
it seems likes such fun
Until you lose
what you had won
Mood of the Moment: Three Doors Down - Let me go
Ok, so I just figured I'd outright say that I have never turned my back on anyone, and I never intend to, just because I firmly believe that people can change. Having said that, there are some people (one in particular) that had better be QUITE glad about the fact that I am so forgiving. Not everyone is that way. Most people will eventually turn away. If you treat people like shit, just because it helps you get what you want...if you take peoples trust, love, hopes, and feelings and play with them like your own little yo-yo, just to toss it aside when a more interesting toy comes along, and then expect to pick it up as if nothing ever happened later on down the road...when it becomes useful again...then people will get tired of it. If you always say whatever seems most profitable to you, but then never back it up...people will get tired of it. You may not mean to be an absolute bastard to the people around you, you may not do it intentionally to hurt anyone else...you dont have to....you just do it to help yourself. That is what is important....that you are happy....and people must understand what you have to do to be happy, right???
Bullshit...
If you hurt people...you hurt people...period. If you live your life to serve only yourself, regardless of others and their feelings, eventually it will come back and bite you right on the ass. Any fear that you may have of being alone will come true. That is inevitable. I know that if you are one of the people that I am talking to, then you are not going to believe me right now. You wont believe me until it actually happens. But just know, that if there is a moment in your life when you are broken and alone, I dont care who you are, I turn my back on no one. If you happen to be one of those people that I am talking to then I may be extremely pissed at you....I may say "I told you so" until you are sick of hearing it... but I turn my back on no one. Granted, I hope nobody has to go through that sort of thing in order to change....but there are some people that I just think are headed straight for it....fast. So yea...
Whew.....sorry about that....I promise I am actually in a good mood...(mostly thanks to Steve)...but something happened last night that just sort of set those thoughts into motion, and I had to get them out. I am good now. Anyway...I didn't do much today. I went to work....worked....hung out and bugged Steve while he worked...then I came home and talked to Jennifer, then Steve called....even though it was not time for him to be off work...turns out that just after i left, he asked to go home early because he "wasn't feeling well"...so that he could come home and call me. So I talked to him for a quite good while, then I talked online a bit.....helped dear Bracken with some Calc. homework over the internet (brain now = pile of goo)....good stuff....then I started typing in me blog...and now I am here. Oh, by the way, please forgive the earlier language...I was a bit....um....flustered...so yea. Anywho, I am off to chillax now....probrobly going to bed soon...but yea...I'm going to the theatre tomorrow at 4 to....ummm....meet Steve...imagine that....hehe...so yea....I dont know when I'll be home....I may or may not blog. I dont know...until then.....
Much Love,
DeAnna
Oh well,
it seems likes such fun
Until you lose
what you had won
9.25.2005
Mood of the Moment: "dude..."
Music of the Moment: Radiohead - Creep
So I worked today. Fun fun. Built a movie...woo hoo...yea, "In Her Shoes" it's a bloody 7 reels long! Geez! But yea. Then I changed and hung out with Steve until it was time for us to sit down to watch THE CORPSE BRIDE!!! yea, it rocked...I heart Tim Burton. But yea, i got the opportunity to show Steve off to a couple of people tonight...I felt special. We actually ran into several people that we knew. Steve ran into a couple of guys that he used to be in a band with, and I ran into Bracken (who had to meet Steve, of course) and Brian (who didn't seem to care to meet Steve, but I think he noticed who he was)....yea, it was an interesting night...then after he AWESOME Corpse Bride, me and Steve went outside and hung out for a bit, walked around, then finally just layed on Seans car until Sean got off work to take Steve home. But yea, it made me happy...until he had to leave...then I got sad...and now I am anxiously awaiting 5pm tomorrow...grrr....well....I'm going to bed now, to sleep away the long hours. until next time...
Much Love,
DeAnna
Music of the Moment: Radiohead - Creep
So I worked today. Fun fun. Built a movie...woo hoo...yea, "In Her Shoes" it's a bloody 7 reels long! Geez! But yea. Then I changed and hung out with Steve until it was time for us to sit down to watch THE CORPSE BRIDE!!! yea, it rocked...I heart Tim Burton. But yea, i got the opportunity to show Steve off to a couple of people tonight...I felt special. We actually ran into several people that we knew. Steve ran into a couple of guys that he used to be in a band with, and I ran into Bracken (who had to meet Steve, of course) and Brian (who didn't seem to care to meet Steve, but I think he noticed who he was)....yea, it was an interesting night...then after he AWESOME Corpse Bride, me and Steve went outside and hung out for a bit, walked around, then finally just layed on Seans car until Sean got off work to take Steve home. But yea, it made me happy...until he had to leave...then I got sad...and now I am anxiously awaiting 5pm tomorrow...grrr....well....I'm going to bed now, to sleep away the long hours. until next time...
Much Love,
DeAnna
9.22.2005
Mood of the Moment: I am such a little girl
Music of the Moment: Beck - Loser
ok....so i really didn't do much of any consequence today....as usual. I went to school, took a test, got a test back (95)...chilled and talked to Miranda for a while....avoided my stalker guy....David....he is really creepy. But yea, other than that I just came home and helped my sister with her project...grr...I talked to Jennifer on the phone...then Steve for about an hour...then I hung up with him...then about 5 minutes later the phone rang...and it was Steve...yea...I'm really not sure of the exact amount of time we spent on the phone today...but I do know that he called three times. I couldn't go anywhere today, so I couldn't see him. Hence the long time on the phone. Hmmm, other than that, there is really nothing to report...I lead a somewhat boring life. Darn that real world....but yea, I'm going to bed now...because I have nothing better to do...
Much Love,
DeAnna
Music of the Moment: Beck - Loser
ok....so i really didn't do much of any consequence today....as usual. I went to school, took a test, got a test back (95)...chilled and talked to Miranda for a while....avoided my stalker guy....David....he is really creepy. But yea, other than that I just came home and helped my sister with her project...grr...I talked to Jennifer on the phone...then Steve for about an hour...then I hung up with him...then about 5 minutes later the phone rang...and it was Steve...yea...I'm really not sure of the exact amount of time we spent on the phone today...but I do know that he called three times. I couldn't go anywhere today, so I couldn't see him. Hence the long time on the phone. Hmmm, other than that, there is really nothing to report...I lead a somewhat boring life. Darn that real world....but yea, I'm going to bed now...because I have nothing better to do...
Much Love,
DeAnna
9.21.2005
Mood of the Moment: Tired, still happy
Music of the Moment: System of a Down - Aerials
yep...It's hard to work when Steve comes to visit...
Yep...I've been officially invited to go to West Forsyth's prom this year...
yep...me Gusta Steve...
so yea, I worked tonight...Steve was there for most of me shift. I actually discovered an amazing concept about time. If I was downstairs hanging out with Steve, and we look and see that I have 10 more minutes before I have to go upstairs, then that 10 minutes felt as though it was only a second. However, if I was upstairs working and I had 10 minutes to go before I could go back downstairs again, it was as though 10 minutes turned to ten days...it is truly a very fascinating concept...but yea, otherwise the night was uneventful. So I really have nothing to report...plus I'm tired....so I am off to bed now...
Much Love,
DeAnna
Music of the Moment: System of a Down - Aerials
yep...It's hard to work when Steve comes to visit...
Yep...I've been officially invited to go to West Forsyth's prom this year...
yep...me Gusta Steve...
so yea, I worked tonight...Steve was there for most of me shift. I actually discovered an amazing concept about time. If I was downstairs hanging out with Steve, and we look and see that I have 10 more minutes before I have to go upstairs, then that 10 minutes felt as though it was only a second. However, if I was upstairs working and I had 10 minutes to go before I could go back downstairs again, it was as though 10 minutes turned to ten days...it is truly a very fascinating concept...but yea, otherwise the night was uneventful. So I really have nothing to report...plus I'm tired....so I am off to bed now...
Much Love,
DeAnna
9.20.2005
Mood of the Moment: I happy
Music of the Moment: Gorillaz - Feel Good Inc.
Ok, so I came to the conclusion that I'm going to beat Steve to a pile of goo...(not really)...just because he got this song stuck in my head...It is addicting, and really cool, if you ignore that little D12 splurge in it...grrr....D12...growl...
Ok let's see, I work tonight...coolness, because I think that Matt is back...I was supposed to call him today as a matter of fact...but I don't feel like it. I'll call him from the theatre if he is not there. Plus, of course, Steve's coming to see a movie...so I get to chill with him for a bit...oh jeez...I just had a thought...what if Sean is there tonight?...hmm...yea...he is still in the dark as far as I know...Steve may have told him by now, but I dont know...hmm...oh well...
I really hope I am off this Friday, because I have a chance to see some people that I miss greatly. hmmm....
ok, I am done for now, I'm bored with typing...so i'm going to go amuse myself in some other way...
Much Love,
DeAnna
Music of the Moment: Gorillaz - Feel Good Inc.
Ok, so I came to the conclusion that I'm going to beat Steve to a pile of goo...(not really)...just because he got this song stuck in my head...It is addicting, and really cool, if you ignore that little D12 splurge in it...grrr....D12...growl...
Ok let's see, I work tonight...coolness, because I think that Matt is back...I was supposed to call him today as a matter of fact...but I don't feel like it. I'll call him from the theatre if he is not there. Plus, of course, Steve's coming to see a movie...so I get to chill with him for a bit...oh jeez...I just had a thought...what if Sean is there tonight?...hmm...yea...he is still in the dark as far as I know...Steve may have told him by now, but I dont know...hmm...oh well...
I really hope I am off this Friday, because I have a chance to see some people that I miss greatly. hmmm....
ok, I am done for now, I'm bored with typing...so i'm going to go amuse myself in some other way...
Much Love,
DeAnna
Mwahaha, sorry boys, Steve finally got over his pansyness...so I am now...officially...off the market...and I'm officially tired, so I'm going to bed...night...
Much Love,
DeAnna
Much Love,
DeAnna
9.19.2005
Mood of the Moment: Kinda bored
Music of the Moment: Tool - Schism
I am so definately off work today. Oh my cow. I almost dont know what to do. It's wierd. Plus this was my short day at school. I haven't done anything of consequence all day. It is just sort of befuddling to me. and yes...befuddling is a word.
Yea, so I spent like 45 minutes last night with Steve just trying to figure out a good plan on how to talk to Sean...to break the news...yea...never got the courage to do it...this could end up getting very ugly...ah well...
Yea, so I got like an hour before I head out to see Lord of War w/Steve...hmmm....what to do with that hour?? I may play DDR, I haven't had time to do much of that recently...I could eat...nah, if I do that then I wont be able to eat when I see Steve, and therefore he wont eat it....and the kid needs food in a bad way. OOOOHHH my gosh!!!! I dont know why I forgot to mention this until now...I GOT MY KEY!!!! I EARNED MY KEY!!!!!! WOO HOO!!!!!! I'm a real(er) projectionist now! *calms down*...It makes me happy...
but yea, I think I am going to go act upon my DDR reflex now...if anyone wants to find me tonight...um...try the theatre, if I'm not there...I hope you know the cell number...
Until later...
Much Love,
DeAnna
There should be a new category of breaks.
We have smoke breaks,
coffee breaks,
"fresh-air" breaks...
What we really need
are pixie stick breaks...
yea...hehe...
Music of the Moment: Tool - Schism
I am so definately off work today. Oh my cow. I almost dont know what to do. It's wierd. Plus this was my short day at school. I haven't done anything of consequence all day. It is just sort of befuddling to me. and yes...befuddling is a word.
Yea, so I spent like 45 minutes last night with Steve just trying to figure out a good plan on how to talk to Sean...to break the news...yea...never got the courage to do it...this could end up getting very ugly...ah well...
Yea, so I got like an hour before I head out to see Lord of War w/Steve...hmmm....what to do with that hour?? I may play DDR, I haven't had time to do much of that recently...I could eat...nah, if I do that then I wont be able to eat when I see Steve, and therefore he wont eat it....and the kid needs food in a bad way. OOOOHHH my gosh!!!! I dont know why I forgot to mention this until now...I GOT MY KEY!!!! I EARNED MY KEY!!!!!! WOO HOO!!!!!! I'm a real(er) projectionist now! *calms down*...It makes me happy...
but yea, I think I am going to go act upon my DDR reflex now...if anyone wants to find me tonight...um...try the theatre, if I'm not there...I hope you know the cell number...
Until later...
Much Love,
DeAnna
There should be a new category of breaks.
We have smoke breaks,
coffee breaks,
"fresh-air" breaks...
What we really need
are pixie stick breaks...
yea...hehe...
9.18.2005
Mood of the Moment: dare I say it...happy...but in a cautious way...
Music of the Moment: Green Day - Minority
ok, so yesterday I worked at night. #8 decided that it hated me...it wrapped, big time, but I got to it in time and fixed it...didn't even have to stop the movie....beat that...
Yea, towards the end of my shift I was breaking down a movie, and Steve had already finished and clocked out, so he was hanging out with me upstairs as I broke down the movie. Eventually Sean came up there, there was some chatting...and eventually it worked out that I was invited to come midnight swimming at sean's mom's house, which happens to be like 10 minutes frm mine. So you know what I did? I went midnight swimming at Sean's mom's house...we only swam until like 1:45ish...then we went back inside and chilled out in the basement playing with the 3D glasses...getting high on sugar (candy....pixie sticks...)...listening to music....and messing around with a strobe light...yea...mucho fun. I didn't get home until like 10 'til 5am...beautiful....hehe...
Today I went into work at 1, I worked downstairs because I am nice and took one of my friends' shift for them. I ended up working a little past 5, which is when Sean and Steve showed up...Sean had to work, Steve was just there to hang out. So, naturally, I didn't go home immediately after work. In fact I didn't go home a little bit after work. No...I didn't come home until after 11 o'clock...and I found out some very interesting things. See, apparently I am causing some disagreement amongst some of the males that I know. I found out tonight that I truly have 5 guys that all know each other that all like me. Hmmm, interesting it is....it almost makes me feel bad...but hey, I cant help it if I only like one of them....hehe...
Oh, did I mention that Jon came to the theatre? Yea, it was cool, we got to talk for a while, and I haven't seen him in forever...he's got a bloody mohawk now...haha, I like it better than when he had that stupid black poof thing going on...hehe...
Ok, other than that, there isn't really much to report...and I'm tired...though I cant imagine why, hehe....so I am off to bed...until later...
Much Love,
DeAnna
Music of the Moment: Green Day - Minority
ok, so yesterday I worked at night. #8 decided that it hated me...it wrapped, big time, but I got to it in time and fixed it...didn't even have to stop the movie....beat that...
Yea, towards the end of my shift I was breaking down a movie, and Steve had already finished and clocked out, so he was hanging out with me upstairs as I broke down the movie. Eventually Sean came up there, there was some chatting...and eventually it worked out that I was invited to come midnight swimming at sean's mom's house, which happens to be like 10 minutes frm mine. So you know what I did? I went midnight swimming at Sean's mom's house...we only swam until like 1:45ish...then we went back inside and chilled out in the basement playing with the 3D glasses...getting high on sugar (candy....pixie sticks...)...listening to music....and messing around with a strobe light...yea...mucho fun. I didn't get home until like 10 'til 5am...beautiful....hehe...
Today I went into work at 1, I worked downstairs because I am nice and took one of my friends' shift for them. I ended up working a little past 5, which is when Sean and Steve showed up...Sean had to work, Steve was just there to hang out. So, naturally, I didn't go home immediately after work. In fact I didn't go home a little bit after work. No...I didn't come home until after 11 o'clock...and I found out some very interesting things. See, apparently I am causing some disagreement amongst some of the males that I know. I found out tonight that I truly have 5 guys that all know each other that all like me. Hmmm, interesting it is....it almost makes me feel bad...but hey, I cant help it if I only like one of them....hehe...
Oh, did I mention that Jon came to the theatre? Yea, it was cool, we got to talk for a while, and I haven't seen him in forever...he's got a bloody mohawk now...haha, I like it better than when he had that stupid black poof thing going on...hehe...
Ok, other than that, there isn't really much to report...and I'm tired...though I cant imagine why, hehe....so I am off to bed...until later...
Much Love,
DeAnna
9.17.2005
yea....that last post....just sort of ignore that...
I just got home...
I'm tired....
My dad is yelling...
going to bed now...
Much Love,
DeAnna
I just got home...
I'm tired....
My dad is yelling...
going to bed now...
Much Love,
DeAnna
9.16.2005
9.15.2005
Mood of the Moment: Bored
Music of the Moment: The Killers - Somebody told me
I am off work today. Woot! In all actuality, I am not completely off of work. I have a meeting tonight at 8pm...then I am probrobly gonna hang out a bit afterwards, possibly see a movie...or pick on Steve about the fact that he has to work...since he has managed to make it up to the theatre every night this week...even though the kid has no car. Haha, I made him and a couple of my other boys do some manual labor last night... they carried my grey-can movies downstairs for me...mwahaha...So yea, we also came to the conclusion that Steve is extremely toned...but it isn't because he works out...because he hasn't worked out a day in his life...he has awesome abs and stuff simply because he is so freaking thin that his skin sucks up to his muscle. He is fairly tall, but only weighs 120...geez! But yea, Sean apparently "knows for sure" that I like him...only...I dont like him....in fact I find him quite obnoxious...I'm just too nice to tell him this...grr...Headache guy came last night too, I know his name, I just forget it all the time, but yea, he seems pretty cool, he always waves at me when he leaves the theatre...one day I am gonna steal his necklace...he just doesn't know it yet. Ok, the name thing is really bothering me...I just cant remember it....hmmm...
ok, so I found out today that stuff will get to me if it is sent to the new address, which is muy cool. How did I find this out? Well a couple of weeks ago, I sent a letter, this letter contained a couple of gift certificates to someone...due to complications, they were unable to recieve this letter...and I got it back today. I plan on resending it...just because I .....I dont know....I just have this need for it to be sent and to actually arrive there...I'll go nuts if it doesn't....even if it is incredibly late now....grr...
I had a test today in Intro. to Old Testament...it had essays....I hate essays...All together I wrote 2.5 pages of essays, it annoyed me....but I think I did ok...I mean, c'mon....it's on the Bible!! hehe...
oh well, I guess I am gonna go, kids need help on their homework...until later,
Much Love,
DeAnna
Sean: You wanna play strip poker with us?
Me: No...
Sean: awww, why not??
Me: Dude, I suck at poker...
Steve: Oh please play!
Music of the Moment: The Killers - Somebody told me
I am off work today. Woot! In all actuality, I am not completely off of work. I have a meeting tonight at 8pm...then I am probrobly gonna hang out a bit afterwards, possibly see a movie...or pick on Steve about the fact that he has to work...since he has managed to make it up to the theatre every night this week...even though the kid has no car. Haha, I made him and a couple of my other boys do some manual labor last night... they carried my grey-can movies downstairs for me...mwahaha...So yea, we also came to the conclusion that Steve is extremely toned...but it isn't because he works out...because he hasn't worked out a day in his life...he has awesome abs and stuff simply because he is so freaking thin that his skin sucks up to his muscle. He is fairly tall, but only weighs 120...geez! But yea, Sean apparently "knows for sure" that I like him...only...I dont like him....in fact I find him quite obnoxious...I'm just too nice to tell him this...grr...Headache guy came last night too, I know his name, I just forget it all the time, but yea, he seems pretty cool, he always waves at me when he leaves the theatre...one day I am gonna steal his necklace...he just doesn't know it yet. Ok, the name thing is really bothering me...I just cant remember it....hmmm...
ok, so I found out today that stuff will get to me if it is sent to the new address, which is muy cool. How did I find this out? Well a couple of weeks ago, I sent a letter, this letter contained a couple of gift certificates to someone...due to complications, they were unable to recieve this letter...and I got it back today. I plan on resending it...just because I .....I dont know....I just have this need for it to be sent and to actually arrive there...I'll go nuts if it doesn't....even if it is incredibly late now....grr...
I had a test today in Intro. to Old Testament...it had essays....I hate essays...All together I wrote 2.5 pages of essays, it annoyed me....but I think I did ok...I mean, c'mon....it's on the Bible!! hehe...
oh well, I guess I am gonna go, kids need help on their homework...until later,
Much Love,
DeAnna
Sean: You wanna play strip poker with us?
Me: No...
Sean: awww, why not??
Me: Dude, I suck at poker...
Steve: Oh please play!
9.14.2005
Guess who came to see me at work last night...
Haha, gotta go make some money now....
Until later,
Much Love,
DeAnna
You want me to throw a shoe at him? I'll do it! _ Steve
Haha, gotta go make some money now....
Until later,
Much Love,
DeAnna
You want me to throw a shoe at him? I'll do it! _ Steve
9.13.2005
Mood of the Moment: Tired, but in a good way
Music of the Moment: 3 Doors Down - Behind those eyes
so I got home at nearly midnight...yes, I realize it was a 7:20 movie...but Steve needed a ride home...nad when I got to his house I needed to use the phone...and then he asked if I wanted something to drink...and it is just impolite to not accept when someone offers you something to drink...and you know I have to drink soda really slowly...because if not then it makes me insides feel funny...and my how time flies! Haha...but yea, tonight was mucho fun, and Steve said he'd try to make it up to work to see me tomorrow, since I seem to work every day this week that he doesn't. So that should be cool. Maybe I'll be less bored, though I may get less work done. But yea, I wont bore anyone with details...fun night...the end....I have school tomorrow...till later...
Much Love,
DeAnna
and my time
is a piece of wax
falling on a termite
that's choking on the splinters
Music of the Moment: 3 Doors Down - Behind those eyes
so I got home at nearly midnight...yes, I realize it was a 7:20 movie...but Steve needed a ride home...nad when I got to his house I needed to use the phone...and then he asked if I wanted something to drink...and it is just impolite to not accept when someone offers you something to drink...and you know I have to drink soda really slowly...because if not then it makes me insides feel funny...and my how time flies! Haha...but yea, tonight was mucho fun, and Steve said he'd try to make it up to work to see me tomorrow, since I seem to work every day this week that he doesn't. So that should be cool. Maybe I'll be less bored, though I may get less work done. But yea, I wont bore anyone with details...fun night...the end....I have school tomorrow...till later...
Much Love,
DeAnna
and my time
is a piece of wax
falling on a termite
that's choking on the splinters
9.12.2005
Mood of the Moment: kinda bored
Music of the Moment: Seether - Remedy
Ok, so because of the fact that I have spent nearly all of my time at work this weekend, I have come to a few conclusions. First of all, Kilbrew is kinda getting creepy, more than once he has sort of cornered me....he is always like 6 inches away from me, and it gets kind of annoying. Second of all, Steve and I working the same shift is completely counterproductive. Like, I worked a double yesterday, both shifts upstairs. I didn't get a break, reall, since I was the only one there who knew how to fix the projectors if something was to mess up. So I sort of took a pseudo-break, which consists of the manager telling me that I can go downstairs and hang out and eat and stuff, and I have to clock out for at least 30 minutes, due to law. Well, I went downstairs for about an hour...and approximately 30 minutes of that was locked in a popcorn fight with Steve, another 15 was spent hangin out outside with Steve, about 10 minutes trying to shoot straws into the trashcan while Steve tried to block them...and I think the rest of the time I used for eating and such. Ok, so I go upstairs at around 6...make my rounds, start threading, finally I finish playing all the movies up until 7:20. Go downstairs to get some drink...Amazingly enough I got cought up downstairs, and didn't go back up until I had to start the 8 o'clock movie. I started it, checked all the machines, and proceeded to go back downstairs...because Steve told me he'd be waiting...is anybody noticing a pattern? Yea, if you aren't, you are just really, um...slow...so yea, then at the end of the night, all of the downstairs workers can go at like just a little bit after ten...at like 11:40-ish Steve left, he was upstairs hanging out w/me while I was building a movie. It was actually very good timing, because my dad got there at like 11:45, no joke...it was funny. But yea, other than that not much has happened. I'm getting better at projection, I know this because I rescued #8 from a brain wrap last night, the brain malfunctioned, and I cought it, just in time, mwahaha!!! But yea, I'm gonna go now...because I have to get ready to go to the movies. I'm going to see The Exorcism of Emily Rose....with Steve...I may type more when I get home, until then,
Much Love,
DeAnna
Music of the Moment: Seether - Remedy
Ok, so because of the fact that I have spent nearly all of my time at work this weekend, I have come to a few conclusions. First of all, Kilbrew is kinda getting creepy, more than once he has sort of cornered me....he is always like 6 inches away from me, and it gets kind of annoying. Second of all, Steve and I working the same shift is completely counterproductive. Like, I worked a double yesterday, both shifts upstairs. I didn't get a break, reall, since I was the only one there who knew how to fix the projectors if something was to mess up. So I sort of took a pseudo-break, which consists of the manager telling me that I can go downstairs and hang out and eat and stuff, and I have to clock out for at least 30 minutes, due to law. Well, I went downstairs for about an hour...and approximately 30 minutes of that was locked in a popcorn fight with Steve, another 15 was spent hangin out outside with Steve, about 10 minutes trying to shoot straws into the trashcan while Steve tried to block them...and I think the rest of the time I used for eating and such. Ok, so I go upstairs at around 6...make my rounds, start threading, finally I finish playing all the movies up until 7:20. Go downstairs to get some drink...Amazingly enough I got cought up downstairs, and didn't go back up until I had to start the 8 o'clock movie. I started it, checked all the machines, and proceeded to go back downstairs...because Steve told me he'd be waiting...is anybody noticing a pattern? Yea, if you aren't, you are just really, um...slow...so yea, then at the end of the night, all of the downstairs workers can go at like just a little bit after ten...at like 11:40-ish Steve left, he was upstairs hanging out w/me while I was building a movie. It was actually very good timing, because my dad got there at like 11:45, no joke...it was funny. But yea, other than that not much has happened. I'm getting better at projection, I know this because I rescued #8 from a brain wrap last night, the brain malfunctioned, and I cought it, just in time, mwahaha!!! But yea, I'm gonna go now...because I have to get ready to go to the movies. I'm going to see The Exorcism of Emily Rose....with Steve...I may type more when I get home, until then,
Much Love,
DeAnna
9.11.2005
I have been working, and I will continue to do so...I worked a double yesterday, and I work a double today...so if you need me : 765-1555
the good news : Looked at the scheduele for today : Stephen :5-cl....Sean: off.....SCORE!!!!!
The bad news, I'm gonna be there for 11 hours today...
Oh well, I'm off monday, So I'll prob. blog then...
Much love,
DeAnna
Know all of the things
that make you who you are
I know that goodbye
means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me
to catch him every time he falls
Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful...
the good news : Looked at the scheduele for today : Stephen :5-cl....Sean: off.....SCORE!!!!!
The bad news, I'm gonna be there for 11 hours today...
Oh well, I'm off monday, So I'll prob. blog then...
Much love,
DeAnna
Know all of the things
that make you who you are
I know that goodbye
means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me
to catch him every time he falls
Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful...
9.09.2005
Mood of the Moment: thoughtful
Music of the Moment: Muse - Hysteria
Ok, so, what did I do today...ahh yes, physical therapy. Beautiful thing physical therapy is. I actually am not being sarcastic. You see, I was talking to Cory, he found out that I heart Volleyball...he let me pretty much play for physical therapy. He told me that with a bit more work I can prob. play again...he...hehe....hehehe! Hmmm, I really should not be posting this online. People might think I like sports....and I dont....I detest sports. I just like Volleyball. I played on a team before the wreck. but yea...
Then I went to eat something with my grandmother, then I went to school. Talked to Katie for a bit, since she has kinda skipped the last couple of classes. I told her to give Cory a Happy belated B-day wish for me, since she did not get to see me before hand. I lost his number, so I cant tell him meself...Then I came home, got online for some school stuff, then jogged a bit, got up to the bus stop just in time to pick the kids up, came home, did some more stuff on the computer, then Jennifer called.
Ok, so we decided to go see a movie, didn't really know which one, but we went anyway. So we got to the theatre, and finally decided on The Exorcism of Emily Rose...the movie was lovely, the only problem is that both of us were too proud to cling to each other during certain parts. We needed another person...a guy...to like sit between us so that if we grabbed onto him we would not look really wierd. Really didn't matter who, although I wouldn't mind if it was, oh, I dont know, perhaps someone named Stephen...haha....but that is just me. ..
(just so that everyone knows, between that last paragraph and the next one, I took a two hour break in typing, to make a phone call...)
Anyway, we went to the mall, walked around for a bit, bumped into Eric...be proud of him, he is taking an honors class this year...but yea, him and Jennifer talked about their senior superlatives this year. Jennifer wants most musical. I told them that I dont know about all of the categories, but I know that for most musical I would put Jennifer, since I dont really know any other musical girls in her grade, and I'd of course put Brian Beck as the guy. Eric would get the vote for most theatrical, along with Noelle. I know that they prob. have a best eyes and best hair category, but if I tell who I'd put for those, I would incriminate myself...
but yea, then I came home...talked on the phone with one of my friends that is away at college, then I checked my caller ID to see who had called...then I started typing this, then i talked to jennifer, then I paused typing this for a little while, and made a phone call....then I sort of curled up in a ball and cried for a bit, now I'm feeling a little better, and now I am finishing this post, and I must go give my paw-paw his shot...
until some other time...
Much Love,
DeAnna
[insert somewhat angry, somewhat suicidal, completely hopeless lyrics here]
Music of the Moment: Muse - Hysteria
Ok, so, what did I do today...ahh yes, physical therapy. Beautiful thing physical therapy is. I actually am not being sarcastic. You see, I was talking to Cory, he found out that I heart Volleyball...he let me pretty much play for physical therapy. He told me that with a bit more work I can prob. play again...he...hehe....hehehe! Hmmm, I really should not be posting this online. People might think I like sports....and I dont....I detest sports. I just like Volleyball. I played on a team before the wreck. but yea...
Then I went to eat something with my grandmother, then I went to school. Talked to Katie for a bit, since she has kinda skipped the last couple of classes. I told her to give Cory a Happy belated B-day wish for me, since she did not get to see me before hand. I lost his number, so I cant tell him meself...Then I came home, got online for some school stuff, then jogged a bit, got up to the bus stop just in time to pick the kids up, came home, did some more stuff on the computer, then Jennifer called.
Ok, so we decided to go see a movie, didn't really know which one, but we went anyway. So we got to the theatre, and finally decided on The Exorcism of Emily Rose...the movie was lovely, the only problem is that both of us were too proud to cling to each other during certain parts. We needed another person...a guy...to like sit between us so that if we grabbed onto him we would not look really wierd. Really didn't matter who, although I wouldn't mind if it was, oh, I dont know, perhaps someone named Stephen...haha....but that is just me. ..
(just so that everyone knows, between that last paragraph and the next one, I took a two hour break in typing, to make a phone call...)
Anyway, we went to the mall, walked around for a bit, bumped into Eric...be proud of him, he is taking an honors class this year...but yea, him and Jennifer talked about their senior superlatives this year. Jennifer wants most musical. I told them that I dont know about all of the categories, but I know that for most musical I would put Jennifer, since I dont really know any other musical girls in her grade, and I'd of course put Brian Beck as the guy. Eric would get the vote for most theatrical, along with Noelle. I know that they prob. have a best eyes and best hair category, but if I tell who I'd put for those, I would incriminate myself...
but yea, then I came home...talked on the phone with one of my friends that is away at college, then I checked my caller ID to see who had called...then I started typing this, then i talked to jennifer, then I paused typing this for a little while, and made a phone call....then I sort of curled up in a ball and cried for a bit, now I'm feeling a little better, and now I am finishing this post, and I must go give my paw-paw his shot...
until some other time...
Much Love,
DeAnna
[insert somewhat angry, somewhat suicidal, completely hopeless lyrics here]
Mood of the Moment: I can take it
Music of the Moment: Flogging Molly - Factory Girls
Ok, so tonight when I get home, there shall be updates of the links section. I think there is one that I am going to remove now, one that I'm gonna give until about October the 1st, then it's gonna be gone, and several that need to be updated. I actually take links seriously, if there is a link for you over there, feel special. But yea, I started this post, then figured out I didn't actually have time to talk about anything, but I'll be back tonight most likel, since someone (who shall remain nameless *caugh Crystal caugh*) mis-informed me on where the game was, so yea...I'm going to see a movie instead. I should be home pretty early, so until then...
Much Love,
DeAnna
Send it in a letter
Make yourself feel better
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't need me back
You're just the best I ever had
Music of the Moment: Flogging Molly - Factory Girls
Ok, so tonight when I get home, there shall be updates of the links section. I think there is one that I am going to remove now, one that I'm gonna give until about October the 1st, then it's gonna be gone, and several that need to be updated. I actually take links seriously, if there is a link for you over there, feel special. But yea, I started this post, then figured out I didn't actually have time to talk about anything, but I'll be back tonight most likel, since someone (who shall remain nameless *caugh Crystal caugh*) mis-informed me on where the game was, so yea...I'm going to see a movie instead. I should be home pretty early, so until then...
Much Love,
DeAnna
Send it in a letter
Make yourself feel better
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't need me back
You're just the best I ever had
9.08.2005
Mood of the Moment: Grr...
Music of the Moment: Green Day- Wake me up when September ends
Ok, so I plan for a week to have a time when I am going to be at home alone....and then it takes me like 45 minutes to will myself to have the courage to dial a simple number...I freak out as the phone rings, only to get the answering machine, and then I am too much of a pansy to leave a message...so yea...a complete waste...oh well...I am about to go watch a movie...If anyone is at the game tomorrow, I'll be there. Until then...
Much Love,
DeAnna
Music of the Moment: Green Day- Wake me up when September ends
Ok, so I plan for a week to have a time when I am going to be at home alone....and then it takes me like 45 minutes to will myself to have the courage to dial a simple number...I freak out as the phone rings, only to get the answering machine, and then I am too much of a pansy to leave a message...so yea...a complete waste...oh well...I am about to go watch a movie...If anyone is at the game tomorrow, I'll be there. Until then...
Much Love,
DeAnna
Mood of the Moment: just dont bloody ask
Music of the Moment: Flogging Molly - The Spoken Wheel
Last night at work absolutely rocked. I threaded, watched Matt fix something, started movies, talked to the guy I like, without his bloody friend there being all in my space, and it was quite awesome. Then he left *sadness* and so I went on a smoke break with Matt, then came inside and sat upstairs playing Death Jr., Then went on another smoke break w/Matt, then sat on the curb with Matt, danced around in the parking lot, went back in and played some other game I forgot the name to, lost interest, and spun around in the chair for a little bit. That was the seven o'clock shows. As I was threading the nine o'clocks, I came to number seven and I noticed someone through the port-glass (the window between the projector and the theatre where people watch the movie) and I turned, and Stephen (the aforementioned guy that I like) was standing on one of the back seats in the auditorium so that he could put his face RIGHT ON the port glass, and he was smiling at me...I laughed at him...and then continued threading, even though I was nervous because he was watching. I didn't have anything else to thread for a bit so I stood there and watched as him and Kilbrew frolicked about the auditorium like idiots. They had the whole place to themselves because no paying costomers actually came to see that movie, just them and two friends that they brought. After a few minutes I had to go thread more shows, and I came back to start their movie, then had to leave again, but after I finished starting all the other movies I came back and it was still in previews, and they were still acting like idiots, and Kilbrew noticed I was watching and continued too show off, he wasn't paying much attention though, and I proceeded toget Stephen's attention and made some finger puppets on the screen, then Kilbrew noticed and joined in. It was interesting...then the actual movie came on and I waved goodbye and both of them made motions asking me to come and sit with them, and I just shrugged and mouthed the words "I cant"...both of them made sad faces, it made me feel special. So towards the end of the night I came downstairs to take a smoke break with Matt, and then to help him do some counting. When I got to the lobby I heard Kilbrew, then I saw Kilbrew...Kilbrew was running towards me...oh my, this could not be good...kilbrew picks me up...kilbrew proceeds to carry me around for a second. Interesting to say the least. Then I proceeded to walk outside, since Stephen was leaning on the door and waving for me to come out. Talked with him (with Kilbrew standing like a foot away) for like two seconds, stepped inside to grab my drink, Kilbrew a half step behind me, Stephen still outside because he had a cigarette in his hand. So just as I am about to step outside again one of the other two guys that came with them (who happens to be quite, um, gorgeous himself) sticks his head in the door and is like "listen dude, I understand why you wanna hng out here for a while, but I told you, my brain feels like it is trying to eat it's way through my skull, can we please go?!" so I was like, "I have some Ibuprofen upstairs, if you want some..." and he is just like "oh my God, that would be awesome if i could get ahold of some..."...so I took him upstairs, still with Kilbrew like a foot behind me, and got him some medicine. Then I went downstairs and tried to hold somewhat of a conversation with Stephen, and once again, there was Kilbrew, RIGHT next to me. I even kept like taking a few steps away, and he would just move with me...but yea...it was funny, because the two friends that came with them wanted to know what I did, and I told them...ok....so...anyone that has ever seen fight club automatically thinks of the same exact thing when I tell them that I am a projectionist at the local theatre. I hear it all the time. I am so thankful to dear Brian for exposing me to that movie so that I can know what people are talking about when they say that I should do what the dude did in Fight Club... [To those of you that dont know what I am talking about, watch the movie, it is funny, trippy, quoteable (I am Jack's wasted life), and even educational "I am Jacks Medula oblongata...", it's just good, watch it]...so then we talked about that for a bit, and they all wanted to know how I could do it...it was just interesting. When they left kilbrew of course decided to give me one of those hugs where he lifts me up off the ground, and I literally just looked over his shoulder and made this sort of "help" face to stephen, who was like "dude, come on, let's go"...so I thank him for that...but yea, went upstairs and proceeded to thread...then I went home...it was a fun night...
Today I went to school, then helped memaw at her house, then went to watch a volleyball game at ND high School with Jennifer. Volleyball is the only sport I ever actually liked playing. So that was really cool. To those that are interested, I shall be at the North football game this Friday. The entire time I was in high school, I only walked into a football game once, just to see Ramiro, and I was only there for like 20 minutes. Now that I am out of High School, I am going to a football game so that I can see my friends that are still in high school. So if you know me, and you want to see me, come there, because if I dont get to see anyone I shall just cry. I detest football. So yea, football game, this Friday night, I got this...
I just thought about the fact that it is now the 8th, I know two people that were born today, in fact I think they are both 18, so happy 18th to both of you. I also know someone who was born on the ninth, and in case I forget tomorrow, Happy b-day to you too. All of you know who you are, much love to you all...
So yea, I have school tomorrow....so I'm off to bed...much love to everyone...
DeAnna
With every blade that flowers
must grow then drown
with love, our cruelest sea
Music of the Moment: Flogging Molly - The Spoken Wheel
Last night at work absolutely rocked. I threaded, watched Matt fix something, started movies, talked to the guy I like, without his bloody friend there being all in my space, and it was quite awesome. Then he left *sadness* and so I went on a smoke break with Matt, then came inside and sat upstairs playing Death Jr., Then went on another smoke break w/Matt, then sat on the curb with Matt, danced around in the parking lot, went back in and played some other game I forgot the name to, lost interest, and spun around in the chair for a little bit. That was the seven o'clock shows. As I was threading the nine o'clocks, I came to number seven and I noticed someone through the port-glass (the window between the projector and the theatre where people watch the movie) and I turned, and Stephen (the aforementioned guy that I like) was standing on one of the back seats in the auditorium so that he could put his face RIGHT ON the port glass, and he was smiling at me...I laughed at him...and then continued threading, even though I was nervous because he was watching. I didn't have anything else to thread for a bit so I stood there and watched as him and Kilbrew frolicked about the auditorium like idiots. They had the whole place to themselves because no paying costomers actually came to see that movie, just them and two friends that they brought. After a few minutes I had to go thread more shows, and I came back to start their movie, then had to leave again, but after I finished starting all the other movies I came back and it was still in previews, and they were still acting like idiots, and Kilbrew noticed I was watching and continued too show off, he wasn't paying much attention though, and I proceeded toget Stephen's attention and made some finger puppets on the screen, then Kilbrew noticed and joined in. It was interesting...then the actual movie came on and I waved goodbye and both of them made motions asking me to come and sit with them, and I just shrugged and mouthed the words "I cant"...both of them made sad faces, it made me feel special. So towards the end of the night I came downstairs to take a smoke break with Matt, and then to help him do some counting. When I got to the lobby I heard Kilbrew, then I saw Kilbrew...Kilbrew was running towards me...oh my, this could not be good...kilbrew picks me up...kilbrew proceeds to carry me around for a second. Interesting to say the least. Then I proceeded to walk outside, since Stephen was leaning on the door and waving for me to come out. Talked with him (with Kilbrew standing like a foot away) for like two seconds, stepped inside to grab my drink, Kilbrew a half step behind me, Stephen still outside because he had a cigarette in his hand. So just as I am about to step outside again one of the other two guys that came with them (who happens to be quite, um, gorgeous himself) sticks his head in the door and is like "listen dude, I understand why you wanna hng out here for a while, but I told you, my brain feels like it is trying to eat it's way through my skull, can we please go?!" so I was like, "I have some Ibuprofen upstairs, if you want some..." and he is just like "oh my God, that would be awesome if i could get ahold of some..."...so I took him upstairs, still with Kilbrew like a foot behind me, and got him some medicine. Then I went downstairs and tried to hold somewhat of a conversation with Stephen, and once again, there was Kilbrew, RIGHT next to me. I even kept like taking a few steps away, and he would just move with me...but yea...it was funny, because the two friends that came with them wanted to know what I did, and I told them...ok....so...anyone that has ever seen fight club automatically thinks of the same exact thing when I tell them that I am a projectionist at the local theatre. I hear it all the time. I am so thankful to dear Brian for exposing me to that movie so that I can know what people are talking about when they say that I should do what the dude did in Fight Club... [To those of you that dont know what I am talking about, watch the movie, it is funny, trippy, quoteable (I am Jack's wasted life), and even educational "I am Jacks Medula oblongata...", it's just good, watch it]...so then we talked about that for a bit, and they all wanted to know how I could do it...it was just interesting. When they left kilbrew of course decided to give me one of those hugs where he lifts me up off the ground, and I literally just looked over his shoulder and made this sort of "help" face to stephen, who was like "dude, come on, let's go"...so I thank him for that...but yea, went upstairs and proceeded to thread...then I went home...it was a fun night...
Today I went to school, then helped memaw at her house, then went to watch a volleyball game at ND high School with Jennifer. Volleyball is the only sport I ever actually liked playing. So that was really cool. To those that are interested, I shall be at the North football game this Friday. The entire time I was in high school, I only walked into a football game once, just to see Ramiro, and I was only there for like 20 minutes. Now that I am out of High School, I am going to a football game so that I can see my friends that are still in high school. So if you know me, and you want to see me, come there, because if I dont get to see anyone I shall just cry. I detest football. So yea, football game, this Friday night, I got this...
I just thought about the fact that it is now the 8th, I know two people that were born today, in fact I think they are both 18, so happy 18th to both of you. I also know someone who was born on the ninth, and in case I forget tomorrow, Happy b-day to you too. All of you know who you are, much love to you all...
So yea, I have school tomorrow....so I'm off to bed...much love to everyone...
DeAnna
With every blade that flowers
must grow then drown
with love, our cruelest sea
9.05.2005
Mood of the Moment: Submissive
Music of the Moment: The Killers - Mr. Brightside
Alright, So today I had a day off...from work, from school, so you know what I did? I went to see a movie, and afterwards, I went upstairs and hung out with Ryan for a little bit, and ended up showing him how to rig #12 so that the flat lens would not slide to the wrong place. It just goes to show that work has consumed my life...hey, what else have I got?
Gotta, gotta be down
because I want it all
Saw a trailer for a movie that I'm quite interested in seeing, just because I know that it is going to be quite controversial. Plus it has Heath Ledger (from a knight's tale) and Jake Gyllenhall [DONNIE DARKO(!!)]. It just looks like one of those out-there movies that I like...
Wow, I dont know why, but I am really in one of those "Legend of the Fall" type moods. Most of you probrobly dont know what that means...but yea...
So in a few days I have a wedding to attend. I dont want to go to a wedding. I mean, generally everyone there is with someone else, and I am always sitting there alone...and yet somehow I managed to be the one to catch the boquet last time...and worse than that, everyone laughed when I cought it...like it was truly very funny because everyone knows that the chances of DeAnna marrying someone are very slim...it's just not a very good thing. I mean, I'm all happy and stuff while I'm there, because I refuse to be the bitter, unattractive girl at someone else's wedding, but yea.....grr...
So I'm listening to this song now, and it says "wake me up when september ends"...and I'm like, heck yea, what's so great about september? I mean, I can only think of two good things that have ever happened in september...and one of those was the fact that I got a job. And besides, the sooner October gets here the better. I mean, there are good movies coming out, I get to go to hacker house with a really foxy guy(who actually seems like he may like me), I'm considering taking up the same really foxy guy's offer to guest sing with his band(for a show in october), then there are the obvious things like the Renaissance festival/Boo & Brew (to which I have already bought tickets), and Halloween, at least three good birthdays...October is just a much better month than September. Plus I want to go to a Haloween party, a really big one, just so I can say that I have...Hopefully by then I'll have a car again so that I can atleast pretend to have a life again instead of school, work, home, repeat. Oh yea, and dont even get me started about November...Dude, November = Brian!! He who we have all missed since uncle Sam got really stupid and sent him to Afghanistan!!! of course November does hold thanksgiving, which usually sucks, and then comes December, which has the whole Christmas season, which REALLY sucks...even though Christmas last year was really great...this year will suck, I know this for a fact. Oh well...I'll just enjoy October while it is here...
Anyway, I am obviously really tired, or else I wouldn't have rambled so much. So I'm going to go away and continue writing on a couple of songs that I've started, until I can convince my brain to go to sleep...
Much Love,
Me
I was thinking of days long ago
Driving home alone
Noticed my tank was low
If I'd had one gallon more
or an ounce more courage
I might have shown up
at your door
Music of the Moment: The Killers - Mr. Brightside
Alright, So today I had a day off...from work, from school, so you know what I did? I went to see a movie, and afterwards, I went upstairs and hung out with Ryan for a little bit, and ended up showing him how to rig #12 so that the flat lens would not slide to the wrong place. It just goes to show that work has consumed my life...hey, what else have I got?
Gotta, gotta be down
because I want it all
Saw a trailer for a movie that I'm quite interested in seeing, just because I know that it is going to be quite controversial. Plus it has Heath Ledger (from a knight's tale) and Jake Gyllenhall [DONNIE DARKO(!!)]. It just looks like one of those out-there movies that I like...
Wow, I dont know why, but I am really in one of those "Legend of the Fall" type moods. Most of you probrobly dont know what that means...but yea...
So in a few days I have a wedding to attend. I dont want to go to a wedding. I mean, generally everyone there is with someone else, and I am always sitting there alone...and yet somehow I managed to be the one to catch the boquet last time...and worse than that, everyone laughed when I cought it...like it was truly very funny because everyone knows that the chances of DeAnna marrying someone are very slim...it's just not a very good thing. I mean, I'm all happy and stuff while I'm there, because I refuse to be the bitter, unattractive girl at someone else's wedding, but yea.....grr...
So I'm listening to this song now, and it says "wake me up when september ends"...and I'm like, heck yea, what's so great about september? I mean, I can only think of two good things that have ever happened in september...and one of those was the fact that I got a job. And besides, the sooner October gets here the better. I mean, there are good movies coming out, I get to go to hacker house with a really foxy guy(who actually seems like he may like me), I'm considering taking up the same really foxy guy's offer to guest sing with his band(for a show in october), then there are the obvious things like the Renaissance festival/Boo & Brew (to which I have already bought tickets), and Halloween, at least three good birthdays...October is just a much better month than September. Plus I want to go to a Haloween party, a really big one, just so I can say that I have...Hopefully by then I'll have a car again so that I can atleast pretend to have a life again instead of school, work, home, repeat. Oh yea, and dont even get me started about November...Dude, November = Brian!! He who we have all missed since uncle Sam got really stupid and sent him to Afghanistan!!! of course November does hold thanksgiving, which usually sucks, and then comes December, which has the whole Christmas season, which REALLY sucks...even though Christmas last year was really great...this year will suck, I know this for a fact. Oh well...I'll just enjoy October while it is here...
Anyway, I am obviously really tired, or else I wouldn't have rambled so much. So I'm going to go away and continue writing on a couple of songs that I've started, until I can convince my brain to go to sleep...
Much Love,
Me
I was thinking of days long ago
Driving home alone
Noticed my tank was low
If I'd had one gallon more
or an ounce more courage
I might have shown up
at your door
9.04.2005
Mood of the Moment: If I could meet Eve right now...
Music of the Moment: Papa Roach - Between Angels and Insects
Ok, so I wwent into work last night, only to discover that someone had managed to screw up 3 of the cue tapes, on 3 different movies, and the lens motor on # 12 was broken, and I had to show a sneak at 7:15, and it was a "stay and see" which meant I had to move a few HEAVY platters, and on top of that, NONE of my downstairs guys were working. Ok, so by the time the first showtime started, the cue tapes were fixed, when I started #12, I discovered a way to ghetto rig it so that the picture doesn't hang off of the bottom of the screen, plus I broke down the movie that lenard was supposed to break down, and I didn't start but one show late, and that is because it was supposed to start at 7, but the show before it didn't end until 7:05....so it was like 7 min late. And do you know what Randall said at the end of the night? He told me I did a great job. Randall NEVER compliments me, NEVER...of course Matt was just like "I knew it'd be fine, you wanna go with me to smoke?"...haha, so we went out side and hung out a bit, Jeremy came with us and we were talking about how close Matt's wedding is...hehe, can't wait...3 of my former manager's have gotten married before (two of them to each other), but I have never been invited to it, so it made me happy. Haha, it is kinda funny, because it took him like 3 bloody weeks of carrying that ring around before he finally proposed...good times. Hmmmm, I need to find a good dress to wear....oh well...
So I think that at work tonight I am just going to chill, hang out, slack off, and HOPEFULLY, get to chat with at least one of me boys(yea, I really dont get along with many of the girls there, I hang out with the guys, that is just one more indication that I shall never get married, hehe)...but yea...
Oh, and I find it very amusing that the High School is still the same melodramatic place it was when I left, in the past couple of days I have listened to I know at least 5 cases of how someone has done something to someone else, and as much as I miss my friends, I am kinda glad I get to HEAR about these things, and give objective advise, as opposed to being involved.
Ok, so I am faced with the decision of being off tomorrow, or volunteering to work tomorrow night downstairs...hmmm.....decisions...bills must be paid.....but is electricity really worth putting on that bloody veast and bow tie and dealing with the massive crowd composed of mostly idiots formally referred to as customers??
oh well, I am gonna stop blogging now, I cant really seem to put a coherent sentence together, because I am sort of in a yelling match with my Dad, and I refuse to lose, so until next time...
Much Love,
DeAnna
Think
about
the kids...
Think
about
the kids...
Music of the Moment: Papa Roach - Between Angels and Insects
Ok, so I wwent into work last night, only to discover that someone had managed to screw up 3 of the cue tapes, on 3 different movies, and the lens motor on # 12 was broken, and I had to show a sneak at 7:15, and it was a "stay and see" which meant I had to move a few HEAVY platters, and on top of that, NONE of my downstairs guys were working. Ok, so by the time the first showtime started, the cue tapes were fixed, when I started #12, I discovered a way to ghetto rig it so that the picture doesn't hang off of the bottom of the screen, plus I broke down the movie that lenard was supposed to break down, and I didn't start but one show late, and that is because it was supposed to start at 7, but the show before it didn't end until 7:05....so it was like 7 min late. And do you know what Randall said at the end of the night? He told me I did a great job. Randall NEVER compliments me, NEVER...of course Matt was just like "I knew it'd be fine, you wanna go with me to smoke?"...haha, so we went out side and hung out a bit, Jeremy came with us and we were talking about how close Matt's wedding is...hehe, can't wait...3 of my former manager's have gotten married before (two of them to each other), but I have never been invited to it, so it made me happy. Haha, it is kinda funny, because it took him like 3 bloody weeks of carrying that ring around before he finally proposed...good times. Hmmmm, I need to find a good dress to wear....oh well...
So I think that at work tonight I am just going to chill, hang out, slack off, and HOPEFULLY, get to chat with at least one of me boys(yea, I really dont get along with many of the girls there, I hang out with the guys, that is just one more indication that I shall never get married, hehe)...but yea...
Oh, and I find it very amusing that the High School is still the same melodramatic place it was when I left, in the past couple of days I have listened to I know at least 5 cases of how someone has done something to someone else, and as much as I miss my friends, I am kinda glad I get to HEAR about these things, and give objective advise, as opposed to being involved.
Ok, so I am faced with the decision of being off tomorrow, or volunteering to work tomorrow night downstairs...hmmm.....decisions...bills must be paid.....but is electricity really worth putting on that bloody veast and bow tie and dealing with the massive crowd composed of mostly idiots formally referred to as customers??
oh well, I am gonna stop blogging now, I cant really seem to put a coherent sentence together, because I am sort of in a yelling match with my Dad, and I refuse to lose, so until next time...
Much Love,
DeAnna
Think
about
the kids...
Think
about
the kids...
9.03.2005
Mood of the Moment: I just threw up...but I'm not nauseated anymore...
Music of the Moment: Deathcab for Cutie - Title and Registration
Ok, so the jerk that just sort of ruined my last post happens to have used the name Jack, which means that I do not have the heart to erase it...grr...but yea...eeeww....more sick feelings in stomach...*whimper*...yea, it sucks....and I have to work today. I dont know, maybe I'll feel better after seeing all the boys. Hehe, I haven't seen any of them since last weekend. Oh my, I just remembered that Matt should be there tonight, which means that I get to play more of that stupid-yet-addicting game...yes, DeAnna is actually looking forward to playing a video game, believe it or not. It started by watching Matt play, and evolved from there...haha...
Ohhh, thinking of video games, I still need to go by gamestop...
Ok, that whole not being nauseated thing is wearing off...*whimper*...no me gusta...I dont have anything left to throw up...grr...
Hmmm......I dont think that I still actually have the urge to blog, I think I'd actually rather go curl up into like a 2 square foot area on the couch and pray for the bad feelings in my stomach to go away...If you come to the lovely Wynn....give me a shout (or rather, tell the people at door or box to, hehe) since I'll prob. be bored, depending on the time...but yea....couch...warmth....bye bye
Much Love,
DeAnna
as she bows her head in shame
her tears wash his taste from her lips
and hopeless romanticism
goes down in flames
She shouts to herself
"Bring on my next empty relationship..."
Music of the Moment: Deathcab for Cutie - Title and Registration
Ok, so the jerk that just sort of ruined my last post happens to have used the name Jack, which means that I do not have the heart to erase it...grr...but yea...eeeww....more sick feelings in stomach...*whimper*...yea, it sucks....and I have to work today. I dont know, maybe I'll feel better after seeing all the boys. Hehe, I haven't seen any of them since last weekend. Oh my, I just remembered that Matt should be there tonight, which means that I get to play more of that stupid-yet-addicting game...yes, DeAnna is actually looking forward to playing a video game, believe it or not. It started by watching Matt play, and evolved from there...haha...
Ohhh, thinking of video games, I still need to go by gamestop...
Ok, that whole not being nauseated thing is wearing off...*whimper*...no me gusta...I dont have anything left to throw up...grr...
Hmmm......I dont think that I still actually have the urge to blog, I think I'd actually rather go curl up into like a 2 square foot area on the couch and pray for the bad feelings in my stomach to go away...If you come to the lovely Wynn....give me a shout (or rather, tell the people at door or box to, hehe) since I'll prob. be bored, depending on the time...but yea....couch...warmth....bye bye
Much Love,
DeAnna
as she bows her head in shame
her tears wash his taste from her lips
and hopeless romanticism
goes down in flames
She shouts to herself
"Bring on my next empty relationship..."
Bottom line is,
even if you see them coming,
you're not ready for the big moments.
No one asks for their life to change,
not really. But it does.
So what are we?
Helpless? Puppets?
No.
The big moments are gonna come.
You can't help that.
It's what you do afterwards that counts.
That's when you find out who you are.....
....You'll see what I mean....
even if you see them coming,
you're not ready for the big moments.
No one asks for their life to change,
not really. But it does.
So what are we?
Helpless? Puppets?
No.
The big moments are gonna come.
You can't help that.
It's what you do afterwards that counts.
That's when you find out who you are.....
....You'll see what I mean....
9.02.2005
Ok, so I was in psych. class today, but I wasn't paying attention, I was writing a letter/trying out my new pens...I mean, we were studying the brain....and it is the same brain that I have studied in like 6 other classes...so yea....I wasn't paying attention, and then I heard the teacher ask "Can anybody tell me what the medula oblongata does?"....I smiled, raised my hand, and said "It regulates heart rate, blood pressure, and breathing."...Yea....I was right....I knew I would be...it was lovely...it was a triumph for me because it just goes to show that watching movies can in fact make you smarter....hehe.....
"I am Jack's medula oblongata. I control Jack's heart rate, blood pressure, and breathing"_ Narrator, Fight Club
Haha, oh well, Jennifer called, so I'm gonna go talk now...
Much Love,
DeAnna
I am jacks inflamed sense of rejection
"I am Jack's medula oblongata. I control Jack's heart rate, blood pressure, and breathing"_ Narrator, Fight Club
Haha, oh well, Jennifer called, so I'm gonna go talk now...
Much Love,
DeAnna
I am jacks inflamed sense of rejection
