9.26.2005
Mood of the Moment: hard to explain
Mood of the Moment: Three Doors Down - Let me go
Ok, so I just figured I'd outright say that I have never turned my back on anyone, and I never intend to, just because I firmly believe that people can change. Having said that, there are some people (one in particular) that had better be QUITE glad about the fact that I am so forgiving. Not everyone is that way. Most people will eventually turn away. If you treat people like shit, just because it helps you get what you want...if you take peoples trust, love, hopes, and feelings and play with them like your own little yo-yo, just to toss it aside when a more interesting toy comes along, and then expect to pick it up as if nothing ever happened later on down the road...when it becomes useful again...then people will get tired of it. If you always say whatever seems most profitable to you, but then never back it up...people will get tired of it. You may not mean to be an absolute bastard to the people around you, you may not do it intentionally to hurt anyone else...you dont have to....you just do it to help yourself. That is what is important....that you are happy....and people must understand what you have to do to be happy, right???
Bullshit...
If you hurt people...you hurt people...period. If you live your life to serve only yourself, regardless of others and their feelings, eventually it will come back and bite you right on the ass. Any fear that you may have of being alone will come true. That is inevitable. I know that if you are one of the people that I am talking to, then you are not going to believe me right now. You wont believe me until it actually happens. But just know, that if there is a moment in your life when you are broken and alone, I dont care who you are, I turn my back on no one. If you happen to be one of those people that I am talking to then I may be extremely pissed at you....I may say "I told you so" until you are sick of hearing it... but I turn my back on no one. Granted, I hope nobody has to go through that sort of thing in order to change....but there are some people that I just think are headed straight for it....fast. So yea...
Whew.....sorry about that....I promise I am actually in a good mood...(mostly thanks to Steve)...but something happened last night that just sort of set those thoughts into motion, and I had to get them out. I am good now. Anyway...I didn't do much today. I went to work....worked....hung out and bugged Steve while he worked...then I came home and talked to Jennifer, then Steve called....even though it was not time for him to be off work...turns out that just after i left, he asked to go home early because he "wasn't feeling well"...so that he could come home and call me. So I talked to him for a quite good while, then I talked online a bit.....helped dear Bracken with some Calc. homework over the internet (brain now = pile of goo)....good stuff....then I started typing in me blog...and now I am here. Oh, by the way, please forgive the earlier language...I was a bit....um....flustered...so yea. Anywho, I am off to chillax now....probrobly going to bed soon...but yea...I'm going to the theatre tomorrow at 4 to....ummm....meet Steve...imagine that....hehe...so yea....I dont know when I'll be home....I may or may not blog. I dont know...until then.....
Much Love,
DeAnna
Oh well,
it seems likes such fun
Until you lose
what you had won
Mood of the Moment: Three Doors Down - Let me go
Ok, so I just figured I'd outright say that I have never turned my back on anyone, and I never intend to, just because I firmly believe that people can change. Having said that, there are some people (one in particular) that had better be QUITE glad about the fact that I am so forgiving. Not everyone is that way. Most people will eventually turn away. If you treat people like shit, just because it helps you get what you want...if you take peoples trust, love, hopes, and feelings and play with them like your own little yo-yo, just to toss it aside when a more interesting toy comes along, and then expect to pick it up as if nothing ever happened later on down the road...when it becomes useful again...then people will get tired of it. If you always say whatever seems most profitable to you, but then never back it up...people will get tired of it. You may not mean to be an absolute bastard to the people around you, you may not do it intentionally to hurt anyone else...you dont have to....you just do it to help yourself. That is what is important....that you are happy....and people must understand what you have to do to be happy, right???
Bullshit...
If you hurt people...you hurt people...period. If you live your life to serve only yourself, regardless of others and their feelings, eventually it will come back and bite you right on the ass. Any fear that you may have of being alone will come true. That is inevitable. I know that if you are one of the people that I am talking to, then you are not going to believe me right now. You wont believe me until it actually happens. But just know, that if there is a moment in your life when you are broken and alone, I dont care who you are, I turn my back on no one. If you happen to be one of those people that I am talking to then I may be extremely pissed at you....I may say "I told you so" until you are sick of hearing it... but I turn my back on no one. Granted, I hope nobody has to go through that sort of thing in order to change....but there are some people that I just think are headed straight for it....fast. So yea...
Whew.....sorry about that....I promise I am actually in a good mood...(mostly thanks to Steve)...but something happened last night that just sort of set those thoughts into motion, and I had to get them out. I am good now. Anyway...I didn't do much today. I went to work....worked....hung out and bugged Steve while he worked...then I came home and talked to Jennifer, then Steve called....even though it was not time for him to be off work...turns out that just after i left, he asked to go home early because he "wasn't feeling well"...so that he could come home and call me. So I talked to him for a quite good while, then I talked online a bit.....helped dear Bracken with some Calc. homework over the internet (brain now = pile of goo)....good stuff....then I started typing in me blog...and now I am here. Oh, by the way, please forgive the earlier language...I was a bit....um....flustered...so yea. Anywho, I am off to chillax now....probrobly going to bed soon...but yea...I'm going to the theatre tomorrow at 4 to....ummm....meet Steve...imagine that....hehe...so yea....I dont know when I'll be home....I may or may not blog. I dont know...until then.....
Much Love,
DeAnna
Oh well,
it seems likes such fun
Until you lose
what you had won
# posted by DeAnna : 12:05 PM
