6.04.2005
Mood of the Moment: Happy...I have to be.....nobody else will!
Music of the Moment:Deathcab for Cutie - Lack of Color
My sunburn is SLOWLY getting better...but I still look like a lizerd. My face is peeling....but it shouldn't yet...the skin underneath is not ready....I shouldn't peel it....but i just reflexively peel it off because it itches, then I have a little sore red spot.....sucks...
My dad is talking to me right now. he is saying that I am overly dramatic and need to grow up. He says a lot of things about me...I am not even sure that he realizes that I listen to him when he says them...I dont know. I do think that I am overly dramatic in a way though...(oh yea...he is now telling me that I make HIM feel like crap...but anyway...) I think I care too much what people think about me. I'd like to be someone that makes others smile...but my lot in life that is not. I know this, but I try anyway and then for some reason I get upset when i fail. Not only do I fail though, but I seem to do the opposite...I seem to upset people...but it is ok.
I do miss Tammy....an Chris....Tammy was endlessly happy to see me...and Chris would roll his eyes, but a smile would be attached. (my dad has now switched gears and is describing to me how I can look more like Anjelina Jolie.)
Emily and I were talking about marriage the other day...she was telling me thatover 50% of girls have met their future husbands by the time they turn 18...I found it amusing....she was like "just picture everyone you know right now....there is a 50% chance you will marry one of them"...heh....that is if I marry....because right now it seems that I shall be a nun. Everyone keeps asking me why I say that...I should thiink it would be quite obvious...people are like "dont you wanna have sex?" and I'm like "when I get married" and then people are like "well you can't get married if you are a nun" and I'm like "well, I cant get married if I'm not one either" and they are like "why not?" and I'm like "because nobody would ever marry me!"...it's not that hard to figure out....and if you are gonna be alone, you might as well be alone with God....so there you go. If I get married I shall not be a nun....the end.
haha...my Dad is now going on B/C I showed him a picture of Kyle, and he wears eyeliner, so he is ranting about guys wearing eyeliner...hehe...
but yea, I'm gonna go now...I'm tired....
Much Love,
DeAnna
I'm missing your laugh,
How did it break?
and when did your eyes
begin to look fake?
I hope you're as happy as your pretending
I'm cuddling close to blanket and sheets
and I am alone in my defeat...
Music of the Moment:Deathcab for Cutie - Lack of Color
My sunburn is SLOWLY getting better...but I still look like a lizerd. My face is peeling....but it shouldn't yet...the skin underneath is not ready....I shouldn't peel it....but i just reflexively peel it off because it itches, then I have a little sore red spot.....sucks...
My dad is talking to me right now. he is saying that I am overly dramatic and need to grow up. He says a lot of things about me...I am not even sure that he realizes that I listen to him when he says them...I dont know. I do think that I am overly dramatic in a way though...(oh yea...he is now telling me that I make HIM feel like crap...but anyway...) I think I care too much what people think about me. I'd like to be someone that makes others smile...but my lot in life that is not. I know this, but I try anyway and then for some reason I get upset when i fail. Not only do I fail though, but I seem to do the opposite...I seem to upset people...but it is ok.
I do miss Tammy....an Chris....Tammy was endlessly happy to see me...and Chris would roll his eyes, but a smile would be attached. (my dad has now switched gears and is describing to me how I can look more like Anjelina Jolie.)
Emily and I were talking about marriage the other day...she was telling me thatover 50% of girls have met their future husbands by the time they turn 18...I found it amusing....she was like "just picture everyone you know right now....there is a 50% chance you will marry one of them"...heh....that is if I marry....because right now it seems that I shall be a nun. Everyone keeps asking me why I say that...I should thiink it would be quite obvious...people are like "dont you wanna have sex?" and I'm like "when I get married" and then people are like "well you can't get married if you are a nun" and I'm like "well, I cant get married if I'm not one either" and they are like "why not?" and I'm like "because nobody would ever marry me!"...it's not that hard to figure out....and if you are gonna be alone, you might as well be alone with God....so there you go. If I get married I shall not be a nun....the end.
haha...my Dad is now going on B/C I showed him a picture of Kyle, and he wears eyeliner, so he is ranting about guys wearing eyeliner...hehe...
but yea, I'm gonna go now...I'm tired....
Much Love,
DeAnna
I'm missing your laugh,
How did it break?
and when did your eyes
begin to look fake?
I hope you're as happy as your pretending
I'm cuddling close to blanket and sheets
and I am alone in my defeat...
# posted by DeAnna : 12:17 AM
