5.11.2005
Mood of the Moment: Worried...I'm working on me Sr.. Project...
Music of the Moment: Three Doors Down
Tell me...How, after being defined by high school for so many years, does one go about NOT being in high school? Granted, of course, I have not been in High School for as many years as some people...(I love you Cory :)...) but it is still one of those things...I don't know...
Anyway, speaking of worrying: Pray for Brian, he is very sick whether he admits it or not. Pray for Jennifer as well, but I shall not say why. Pray for my Senior Project...cuz I'm gonna need all the help I can get...
Yearbooks today...There was a memorial page for Chris...There shouldn't be a memorial page for anyone so young and lovely...there should be no reason to have to remember them...they should still be here...Chris should have been there today, telling me how much of a slacker I am for not having a yearbook yet...then offering to buy one for me when nobody is paying attention. He should have been there crammed beneath those bleachers with all the other seniors talking about how glad we are to be so close to being done...he should have been more than a few pictures on a page...It took me like 20 minutes to read the thing that his parents and Teenia wrote...It's hard to read when one is crying...it's hard to type that way too...I miss Chris...
ok, so I got to go to physical therapy today....yippee! *twist...pull...stretch*..."That doesn't hurt too bad does it??"<< yea, that my friends, is the most stupid question known to man...that ranks right up there with pouring salt into a wound and asking if it feels better....geez!
So today I think I discovered my new favorite pants...I like them because they are all big and comfortable, even though I do look like I am trying to impersonate a guy buy sagging, I dont show anything in them, so it works. Although, I did have someone tell me I had cankles today...*narrows eyes...*, ah well...such is the bread...
Hmmm...If someone you know and love is making a big deal about being completely against something happening...but you would actually like to see more of it....but they are speaking for you on the situation anyway...how do you go about telling them that you disagree with them w/out hurting their feelings/making them look like an idiot...hmmm....this is the question I shall contemplate tonight...
Dreams are a beautiful thing...but hopeless ones suck...sorry, can't elaborate...but that is just something on my mind right now...
I shall never be married, I shall me a nun...again, can't elaborate...appologies...
US history field test today...yea....about 3 fourths of the questions...I had to let the Force guide me through them....because I did NOT know what the answers were....which was odd, because for the life of me I cannot remember knowing so little on a test...*sigh*
Anywho, I still have some Sr. Stuff to do before I get to bed at my new parentally-assigned bedtime! *sarcastically* yay!!...*le sigh...*
June 15 cannot come soon enough...
Much love to all...
De Toi Tousjours,
DeAnna
"I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright'
Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect"
Music of the Moment: Three Doors Down
Tell me...How, after being defined by high school for so many years, does one go about NOT being in high school? Granted, of course, I have not been in High School for as many years as some people...(I love you Cory :)...) but it is still one of those things...I don't know...
Anyway, speaking of worrying: Pray for Brian, he is very sick whether he admits it or not. Pray for Jennifer as well, but I shall not say why. Pray for my Senior Project...cuz I'm gonna need all the help I can get...
Yearbooks today...There was a memorial page for Chris...There shouldn't be a memorial page for anyone so young and lovely...there should be no reason to have to remember them...they should still be here...Chris should have been there today, telling me how much of a slacker I am for not having a yearbook yet...then offering to buy one for me when nobody is paying attention. He should have been there crammed beneath those bleachers with all the other seniors talking about how glad we are to be so close to being done...he should have been more than a few pictures on a page...It took me like 20 minutes to read the thing that his parents and Teenia wrote...It's hard to read when one is crying...it's hard to type that way too...I miss Chris...
ok, so I got to go to physical therapy today....yippee! *twist...pull...stretch*..."That doesn't hurt too bad does it??"<<
So today I think I discovered my new favorite pants...I like them because they are all big and comfortable, even though I do look like I am trying to impersonate a guy buy sagging, I dont show anything in them, so it works. Although, I did have someone tell me I had cankles today...*narrows eyes...*, ah well...such is the bread...
Hmmm...If someone you know and love is making a big deal about being completely against something happening...but you would actually like to see more of it....but they are speaking for you on the situation anyway...how do you go about telling them that you disagree with them w/out hurting their feelings/making them look like an idiot...hmmm....this is the question I shall contemplate tonight...
Dreams are a beautiful thing...but hopeless ones suck...sorry, can't elaborate...but that is just something on my mind right now...
I shall never be married, I shall me a nun...again, can't elaborate...appologies...
US history field test today...yea....about 3 fourths of the questions...I had to let the Force guide me through them....because I did NOT know what the answers were....which was odd, because for the life of me I cannot remember knowing so little on a test...*sigh*
Anywho, I still have some Sr. Stuff to do before I get to bed at my new parentally-assigned bedtime! *sarcastically* yay!!...*le sigh...*
June 15 cannot come soon enough...
Much love to all...
De Toi Tousjours,
DeAnna
"I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright'
Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect"
# posted by DeAnna : 10:15 PM
