5.01.2005
Mood of the Moment: Confused, frustrated, upset, head-aching...But otherwise good.
Music of the Moment: God Rest Ye Merry Gentlemen (by: Barenaked Ladies and Sarah M.)
Ok, everyone, today is a day, simply a day. It is God's day, which is the good part of it that makes it a neutral day. Otherwise, it is not too great. I just have many annoying things on my mind... Due to current frustrations, I shall simply state some of them...
-To Noelle/Jason: I love you both dearly...having said that:I've got an Idea, make up you're mind on something! I think it's lovely that the both of you value your other friends' opinions, but in all honesty the both of you are simply making it hard on yourself by always re-asking the same questions. Both of you want my opinion: Sit down face to face like adults and talk. Sit there, as long as it takes to decide what you are going to do, don't let tempers get involved, and figure it out....because as much as I appreciate the fact that you trust my advice, I cannot tell you what is in your heart, or what you are going to believe. Does this mean that I am commanding you never to ask for my advice again....no. I enjoy giving advice, and I'm sure every other person you ask does as well, but I am just telling you that my biggest piece of advice to both of you is that no piece of advice is going to solve anything, it is up to the two of you. And that is not just for the two of you, it is for everybody....
-To Jennifer: I love you, very much. You, however, have told me of your lack of respect/liking for me, and therefore I tell you this: I bind you to nothing, in fact I understand completely, I don't like me too much either...and keeping up a friendship with someone you don't like is hard...I get that...I love you, I trust you, whatever...
-To Brian: (Ah, yes, everyone reading now is now on the edge of her seat because DeAnna is finally ballsey enough to do something directly towards Brian.) *sigh* I love you, I don't trust you. I'm not going to explain why, If you don't already know, then you can simply ask, I will not simply ignore someone when they come around, I do not stoop that low. Although, if you have to ask why I don't trust you, then you probrobly wouldn't understand anyway. The reason I have decided to send you any sort of message is simply because I have been told by every mutual friend that we have that you have some sort of plan, and that said plan involves me. On top of that many have gone on to say that they know nothing about it other than it is "vengeful"... in all honesty, I don't know, there are some who say that it isn't, some that say that it is...don't know, but I'm tired of worrying about it, and I shall go with the flow...just know that I love you, and if you actually wanted to, my trust could be regained, because I never burn bridges(which may be stupid on my part)....but if your lovely little plan is what people are saying, if it is designed to hurt me, hehe, believe it or not, I don't care...I may be upset, for a while, but it shall simply help me to dislike you to the point that I don't care if you don't want to talk to me anymore. So, yea, this is me...wishing you would talk you me again...but knowing that if you are scheming some evil plot....then I tell you to go for it: see how many friends you'll lose... I miss you, I love you, but I'm just tired of games...
-To Dad: Heh, no comment...
-To Lady Luck: Could you please show your good side to me, at least occasionally??
Alright, 'tis all I am going to say right now, Please don't think that, if I said anything to any of you that it was said in a mean ton whatsoever, hehe, in all honesty, I have just recently taken a pain pill and I don't think I could get mad if I tried...I just decided that today I was going to go the opposite of my usual way (very cryptic), and be very open. So, there you have it. Currently, however, I have rice that has sat in a bowl of hot water for an hour and is now ready to be transformed into oh-so-delicious sticky rice! *randomly bursts into the lime/coconut song*
Much Love to you all....Really....
DeAnna
"Is there something here to believe
Or is it just another part of the game?
there's something I cant see
Something living in the way you smile
Behind those eyes you lie
And there's nothing i can say
Cause I'm never gonna change your mind
Behind those eyes you hide"
Music of the Moment: God Rest Ye Merry Gentlemen (by: Barenaked Ladies and Sarah M.)
Ok, everyone, today is a day, simply a day. It is God's day, which is the good part of it that makes it a neutral day. Otherwise, it is not too great. I just have many annoying things on my mind... Due to current frustrations, I shall simply state some of them...
-To Noelle/Jason: I love you both dearly...having said that:I've got an Idea, make up you're mind on something! I think it's lovely that the both of you value your other friends' opinions, but in all honesty the both of you are simply making it hard on yourself by always re-asking the same questions. Both of you want my opinion: Sit down face to face like adults and talk. Sit there, as long as it takes to decide what you are going to do, don't let tempers get involved, and figure it out....because as much as I appreciate the fact that you trust my advice, I cannot tell you what is in your heart, or what you are going to believe. Does this mean that I am commanding you never to ask for my advice again....no. I enjoy giving advice, and I'm sure every other person you ask does as well, but I am just telling you that my biggest piece of advice to both of you is that no piece of advice is going to solve anything, it is up to the two of you. And that is not just for the two of you, it is for everybody....
-To Jennifer: I love you, very much. You, however, have told me of your lack of respect/liking for me, and therefore I tell you this: I bind you to nothing, in fact I understand completely, I don't like me too much either...and keeping up a friendship with someone you don't like is hard...I get that...I love you, I trust you, whatever...
-To Brian: (Ah, yes, everyone reading now is now on the edge of her seat because DeAnna is finally ballsey enough to do something directly towards Brian.) *sigh* I love you, I don't trust you. I'm not going to explain why, If you don't already know, then you can simply ask, I will not simply ignore someone when they come around, I do not stoop that low. Although, if you have to ask why I don't trust you, then you probrobly wouldn't understand anyway. The reason I have decided to send you any sort of message is simply because I have been told by every mutual friend that we have that you have some sort of plan, and that said plan involves me. On top of that many have gone on to say that they know nothing about it other than it is "vengeful"... in all honesty, I don't know, there are some who say that it isn't, some that say that it is...don't know, but I'm tired of worrying about it, and I shall go with the flow...just know that I love you, and if you actually wanted to, my trust could be regained, because I never burn bridges(which may be stupid on my part)....but if your lovely little plan is what people are saying, if it is designed to hurt me, hehe, believe it or not, I don't care...I may be upset, for a while, but it shall simply help me to dislike you to the point that I don't care if you don't want to talk to me anymore. So, yea, this is me...wishing you would talk you me again...but knowing that if you are scheming some evil plot....then I tell you to go for it: see how many friends you'll lose... I miss you, I love you, but I'm just tired of games...
-To Dad: Heh, no comment...
-To Lady Luck: Could you please show your good side to me, at least occasionally??
Alright, 'tis all I am going to say right now, Please don't think that, if I said anything to any of you that it was said in a mean ton whatsoever, hehe, in all honesty, I have just recently taken a pain pill and I don't think I could get mad if I tried...I just decided that today I was going to go the opposite of my usual way (very cryptic), and be very open. So, there you have it. Currently, however, I have rice that has sat in a bowl of hot water for an hour and is now ready to be transformed into oh-so-delicious sticky rice! *randomly bursts into the lime/coconut song*
Much Love to you all....Really....
DeAnna
"Is there something here to believe
Or is it just another part of the game?
there's something I cant see
Something living in the way you smile
Behind those eyes you lie
And there's nothing i can say
Cause I'm never gonna change your mind
Behind those eyes you hide"
# posted by DeAnna : 4:37 PM
