3.31.2005
It's Been a While
Mood of the Moment:Bored but happy, beginning to develop a headache
Music of the Moment: My Muse CD, and the ocasional encore of Jeff's song...
Yea, So I realize that it has been a while since I have done anything to this site, which is my fault. Whereas I don't really feel like saying everything that has gone on in me life, I will be happy to briefly summarize the gist of it. Many things have changed. My integrity and honesty for some reason have been questioned by several people, and they can all believe whatever they desire...whatever makes them feel better about the decisions that they make. My hair, which used to be bi-coloured, is now one very dark coulour. To those of you that know Sysney Lokant....or Emily Mazur....my hair colour reminds me of theirs....it is also SEVEN FREAKING inches SHORTER than it used to be! I feel naked, but I have less Hair-headaches, so it's cool ;P...So yea...I'm gonna take some quizzes now, and post them on here, simply because I can and I am that bored ;)...
What Fomous Work of Art Are You?:
How Normal Are You?:
How Honest Are You?:
How Daring Are You?:
Are You an Introvert or an Extrovert?:
Are You a Drama Queen?:
Are You Realistic or Romantic?: (hehe...duh...)
What's Your Element?:(some of these were really hard to answer!)
Your Element Is Water 
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A bitof a contradiction, you can seem both lighthearted and serious. That's because you're good at going with the flow - but you also are deep. Highly intuitive, you tune in to people's emotions and moods easily. You are able to tap into deep emotional connections and connect with others. You prefer a smooth, harmonious life - but you can navigate your way around waves. You have a knack for getting people to get along and making life a little more peaceful.
Ok Guys....I'm tired of answering ?'s....I'll do more tom.....Till then, Much Love
DeAnna Kelly
Music of the Moment: My Muse CD, and the ocasional encore of Jeff's song...
Yea, So I realize that it has been a while since I have done anything to this site, which is my fault. Whereas I don't really feel like saying everything that has gone on in me life, I will be happy to briefly summarize the gist of it. Many things have changed. My integrity and honesty for some reason have been questioned by several people, and they can all believe whatever they desire...whatever makes them feel better about the decisions that they make. My hair, which used to be bi-coloured, is now one very dark coulour. To those of you that know Sysney Lokant....or Emily Mazur....my hair colour reminds me of theirs....it is also SEVEN FREAKING inches SHORTER than it used to be! I feel naked, but I have less Hair-headaches, so it's cool ;P...So yea...I'm gonna take some quizzes now, and post them on here, simply because I can and I am that bored ;)...
What Fomous Work of Art Are You?:
| You Are Best Described By... |
 By Claude Monet |
How Normal Are You?:
| You Are 40% Normal (Somewhat Normal) |
 While some of your behavior is quite normal... Other things you do are downright strange You've got a little of your freak going on But you mostly keep your weirdness to yourself |
How Honest Are You?:
| You Are Very Honest |
You tell it like it is, no matter what. Even if the truth hurts, you'll dish it out. And while some may get hurt by your honesty... At least everyone knows where you stand! |
How Daring Are You?:
| You Are Bold And Brave |
 But daring? Not usually? You tend to like to make calculated risks. So while you may not be base jumping any time soon... You are up for whatever's new and (a little) exciting! |
Are You an Introvert or an Extrovert?:
| You Are 40% Extrovert, 60% Introvert |
You're a bit outgoing, a bit reserved Like most people, you enjoy being social But you also value the time you have alone You have struck a good balance! |
Are You a Drama Queen?:
| You Are a Drama Princess (or Prince) |
(You are more dramatic than 50% of the population.) You're not over the top dramatic, but you have your moments. You know how to steal the spotlight... And how to act out to get your way. People around you know that you're good for a laugh. But at times, your drama gets a bit too much for everyone. Tone it down a tad, and you'll still be the center of attention. |
Are You Realistic or Romantic?: (hehe...duh...)
| You Are A Romantic |
You are more romantic than 100% of the population.  You life your life like a fairy tale... or at least you try to.Living for magical moments, you believe there's only one true love for you.Love is the most important thing in your life, and you don't take it for granted.Your perfect match loves to be in love as much as you do! |
What's Your Element?:(some of these were really hard to answer!)
Your Element Is Water
A bitof a contradiction, you can seem both lighthearted and serious. That's because you're good at going with the flow - but you also are deep. Highly intuitive, you tune in to people's emotions and moods easily. You are able to tap into deep emotional connections and connect with others. You prefer a smooth, harmonious life - but you can navigate your way around waves. You have a knack for getting people to get along and making life a little more peaceful.
Ok Guys....I'm tired of answering ?'s....I'll do more tom.....Till then, Much Love
DeAnna Kelly
3.17.2005
jennifer noticed....Shelly noticed....I doubt he noticed....but soon I will be ok...
3.16.2005
Does anybody even read this anymore? Does anybody even care what I have to say? How I feel? If I even exist?? I dont know. I dont know if any such person exists. I dont know that anyone cares that I do exist. I just dont know...
Actually, I do know, I know that if I was to vanish, to disappear.....nobody would care. If I was to die today, there would be nobody standing at my grave sometime down the road saying that they miss me. Nobody would miss me. People smile more when I am not around. I try so hard to make those I love happy, but I fail. It is my mere presence that offends. And for that I appologize.
I still don't understand. I don't know why everyone has decided that I cannot be trusted. Of all the things that I have wrong with me, dishonesty is not one of them. Everybody lies, to say that I've never lied to anyone would be a lie in itself...but I do my best, and try my hardest not to. If I do, generally it takes no more than a day before I break down and tell that truth. It's hard for me. Do I lie now? Yes....I lie everyday when I smile, or say I'm ok. The smile is fake, and I'm not ok. the smile has been fake for a while....and since yesterday I'm not ok. Everytime I meet someone new, I give them my love without question, and with it a piece of my heart. I fr some reason believe that people will treat it and me with care, but I guess not. There really is not much left for me to give, and yet I cant help but give it fully.
So many things, so many things have gone horribly wrong, and I cant fix any of them. Everything seems to have come upon me at once, and I can't stop any of them. Just when I think nothing more can happen...it does, and it comes out of nowhere, and I can't stop them!!!!
I have to go, I must stop.....Know that I love you all....provided anybody reads this.....
"The best part was loving you.
The worst part was letting you go.
The hardest part was watching you never come back..."
"I'm gonna draw a picture,
a picture with a twist.
I'll draw it with a razor blade.
I'll draw it on my wrist.
As I draw this picture,
A fountain will appear
My troubles disappear..."
What would you think if you discovered that the last time you spoke to me was the last time you ever will?
wanna find out...?
Actually, I do know, I know that if I was to vanish, to disappear.....nobody would care. If I was to die today, there would be nobody standing at my grave sometime down the road saying that they miss me. Nobody would miss me. People smile more when I am not around. I try so hard to make those I love happy, but I fail. It is my mere presence that offends. And for that I appologize.
I still don't understand. I don't know why everyone has decided that I cannot be trusted. Of all the things that I have wrong with me, dishonesty is not one of them. Everybody lies, to say that I've never lied to anyone would be a lie in itself...but I do my best, and try my hardest not to. If I do, generally it takes no more than a day before I break down and tell that truth. It's hard for me. Do I lie now? Yes....I lie everyday when I smile, or say I'm ok. The smile is fake, and I'm not ok. the smile has been fake for a while....and since yesterday I'm not ok. Everytime I meet someone new, I give them my love without question, and with it a piece of my heart. I fr some reason believe that people will treat it and me with care, but I guess not. There really is not much left for me to give, and yet I cant help but give it fully.
So many things, so many things have gone horribly wrong, and I cant fix any of them. Everything seems to have come upon me at once, and I can't stop any of them. Just when I think nothing more can happen...it does, and it comes out of nowhere, and I can't stop them!!!!
I have to go, I must stop.....Know that I love you all....provided anybody reads this.....
"The best part was loving you.
The worst part was letting you go.
The hardest part was watching you never come back..."
"I'm gonna draw a picture,
a picture with a twist.
I'll draw it with a razor blade.
I'll draw it on my wrist.
As I draw this picture,
A fountain will appear
My troubles disappear..."
What would you think if you discovered that the last time you spoke to me was the last time you ever will?
wanna find out...?
3.10.2005
Hello....my name is stupid....how are you today? Grr.....I cant necessarily say why I'm stupid....but I am. I can say that part of it it sitting there for God knows how long n front of my pc with an Instant message box up, ready to send something, only you cant figure out what to say....so you just dont say anything....so the person never even knows you wanted to say anything, and thay perhaps think you are avoiding/ignoring them....grrr....stupid.
Anyway, I went to the middle school today to tell all of the fresh, young, impressionable-minded rising 9th graders how awesome theatre is! I felt special. I got a freaking 40 MINUTE lunch!!! What say yous of that?!?!? HAHA! Grrr.....for about 15-20 minutes of that lunch we were accompanied by a certain teacher, who teaches a certain instrument, to a certain person that I *searches for best way to put it...*...used to know...and he of course recognized me....but couldn't remember how....then he remembered, and proceeded to speak of this person for a few moments before someone so appreciatedly interrupted by announcing "who wants more cookies?!" and I took my leave.....bad things....very bad things....but it is ok, because I proceeded to sit and enjoy mis gallettas in peace.
So yea....I decided that, during class change at the middle school, I was going to give them a taste of what high school is like, and I grabbed katie and elizabeth and made them for a sort of over-crowded-high-school-esque blockade in the hallway, as people so lovingly do in high school, just to p-ss the kids off.......it worked beautifully*smiles with a sense of pride*. Yea...I had sort of forgotten the fact that in middle school they dont really do that. It's like that is some sort of rude gene that only kicks in once you have made it to high school....it was very interesting.......OOOOHHHHHH and I got to call some1 out for SOOO trying to sleep while I was talking....It was fun. HAHA! Anyway....today was a mostly beautiful day *looks at watch.....gasps*well, technically yesterday was a mostly beautiful day, minus the parts where I was indredibly stupid. But that is ok...because even with that, I did not have to go see Chris today, as I did yesterday....and that is always good. But yea, I must go now....my pillow and blanket beckon me....much love...
DeAnna
Anyway, I went to the middle school today to tell all of the fresh, young, impressionable-minded rising 9th graders how awesome theatre is! I felt special. I got a freaking 40 MINUTE lunch!!! What say yous of that?!?!? HAHA! Grrr.....for about 15-20 minutes of that lunch we were accompanied by a certain teacher, who teaches a certain instrument, to a certain person that I *searches for best way to put it...*...used to know...and he of course recognized me....but couldn't remember how....then he remembered, and proceeded to speak of this person for a few moments before someone so appreciatedly interrupted by announcing "who wants more cookies?!" and I took my leave.....bad things....very bad things....but it is ok, because I proceeded to sit and enjoy mis gallettas in peace.
So yea....I decided that, during class change at the middle school, I was going to give them a taste of what high school is like, and I grabbed katie and elizabeth and made them for a sort of over-crowded-high-school-esque blockade in the hallway, as people so lovingly do in high school, just to p-ss the kids off.......it worked beautifully*smiles with a sense of pride*. Yea...I had sort of forgotten the fact that in middle school they dont really do that. It's like that is some sort of rude gene that only kicks in once you have made it to high school....it was very interesting.......OOOOHHHHHH and I got to call some1 out for SOOO trying to sleep while I was talking....It was fun. HAHA! Anyway....today was a mostly beautiful day *looks at watch.....gasps*well, technically yesterday was a mostly beautiful day, minus the parts where I was indredibly stupid. But that is ok...because even with that, I did not have to go see Chris today, as I did yesterday....and that is always good. But yea, I must go now....my pillow and blanket beckon me....much love...
DeAnna
3.08.2005
ok people! Here's the good news: 1)I am back online! 2)I have a new-to-me car! 3)I have a prom date!
and the bad news: too much to list...in short: I cried for 30 minutes at a grave site today.....because I just needed to......
more later....I'm tired....Much love
DeAnna
and the bad news: too much to list...in short: I cried for 30 minutes at a grave site today.....because I just needed to......
more later....I'm tired....Much love
DeAnna
