I DreAm in ShAdes of Violet

yea, so, DeAnna's life with a job was boring...thus far, it seems that DeAnna's life with no work is going to be boring on a legendary scale....Plus, I'm broke. It sucks. I've been knitting like there is no tomorrow! I went to get some stuff for Jennifer tonight...hmmm.....didn't find it. Yea, and I went to eat with my family, including my aunt and 2 cousins. The two cousins were my age, and girls, and we got to discussing significant others....yea...I just sort of sat there. Cat was all like, "I'm getting a ring!" and everybody's all like yay Cat, and I just sort of sat there. Everyone had their own story to tell...heh. When some1 asked me I was just kinda like "I have friends....and some of them are boys..." It was amusing in a sad way. Just another way I stick out from that side of the family. I used to envy my big cousin...now....nah...I'm good. That is her and this is me. I like it that way....in the family circle it's nice, I'm not regarded as the good girl, I'm the screw-up, the reject.....and it's kinda cool, there's like this halo over my two cousin's head and I'm just sort of there. I'm still my Grandfather's favorite, and that's what I care about. I'd like to see them jump up instantly when he calls and go get his coffee, being sure to fill it too the right amount so he doesn't spill it, or run to get food b/c my grandmother has left him hungry...or heck, just go down there and chill with him to make him feel special....they dont do that. But it's cool, cuz it's like they are around and everyone is paying attention to them and I just sit there and smile to myself as I put the spoon and a half of creamer into paw-paw's coffee that nobody else even noticed was out. they can have the attention, I get it other places, and I dont like it...*smiles and nods*...yea....that is my reflective moment for the night. Hehe, my grandfather by the way is the coolest grandfather ever to walk the earth. He's one of the sweetest people ever. He love anyone I bring to him. He keeps asking me why I don't bring Jennifer down there more. Hehe. He makes me happy. my shoes make me happy....my socks make me happy...roses make me happy...being invited somewhere on x-mas makes me happy...Return of the king extended edition makes me happy. I just happy.....
much love,
DeAnna