I DreAm in ShAdes of Violet

Nothing really special happened today. No major thing made me come to my decision to blog about what I am going to tonight. I just got tired of turning this online journal thing into a cover up. The reason that I got it is so that if I had something that people didn't know, because I was unwilling to admit it in person....they could find it here. Yet now I find myself telling lies to this blog. It's stupid. The first thing that I lied about was a while back. It mentioned that I had had a friend that I liked. By that I mean I was "in like with them"...I like that phrase. Anyway...I said that I had talked to this person and they didn't like me, and that I had stopped being in like with them. At the time...that is what I thought. I am afraid, however, that it was in fact out-right wrong. I never really stopped. I'm sorry...I know nobody really cares about who I like and whether or not they like me back, but I felt like saying it. I'm not going to do anthing of course....I promised a long time ago I wouldn't. As far as is known I have given up on him and he likes it that way, so that is the way it shall be. Besides....any time I even mention his name, and any hint of me liking him, Jennifer seems to get sad. I dont like to make Jennifer sad. I know that right now she has an oppurtunity, though it may be a long shot, but I am happy for her. That really makes no sense to anyone, I know, but that is not my secret to tell. So....yea...I have Cruel Mistress running through my head now. I felt like listening to it, and made Jennifer hear it twice in the car.....came home, took the kids to see santa....and what was the first thing that Olivia said when we got in the car???? "The squid song, play the squid song DeAnna!!!" So I happily listened to it again...and sadly listened to the one after it, but oh well. *Sigh*...I'm pathetic...I'm sorry for the ramble. I'm gonna go check on my shish kabobs now...
Much Love,
DeAnna

"the greatest thing you'll ever learn is to love, and to be loved in return..."
hmm, so I got the first part down.......