I DreAm in ShAdes of Violet

"In the time of chimpanzees I was a monkey, butane in my veins and I'm out to cut the junkie...." one day I will have a normal song stuck in my head. Today, obviously, is not that day. Today has been sort of up and down. Of course, now that I think about it....It's been more down than up. "so shave your face w/some mace in the dark...." !st period was cool cuz i sat next to jennifer until the end of class when mrs mcghee made me move. We watched a movie. 2nd period I started a project and I am about 15 min. from completing it....but we have the next two days. Third period I got to be messenger girl, and I got this nifty letter from Shelly that was folded so that it looked like a heart....It was cool. It made me happy. It also made me very frustrated after about 20 min. of trying to figure out how to re-fold it. I finally got it though. "forces of evil in a bozo nightmare, banned all the music w/a phony gas chamber".... that song will not get out of my head......So yea, in fourth we started presenting our projects.Yea.....I'm gonna fail. It's horrible.....I have NO TEXT in my entire presentation...It's very very bad. I prob. get to go tom. I'm gonna fail....I'm gonna make Corby look good. That's sad...but yea....today I just sat there and talked, or rather wrote back and forth, to jennifer. Yes....very interesting stuff there....but we wont go into that....While I wasn't writing to her I was either trying once again to re-fold the letter that I stupidly unfolded again, or writing in a letter. "my time is a piece of wax, falling on a termite...that's choking on the splinters..."...dang song....now, I will sometime write something, put someone's name on it, and write it like it is to them, with no intention of giving it to them. Yea, that is what I did today. It was to Brian. It asked several questions that I am wondering about, but I'm not really sure I want to know the answers. I guess the biggest one was why he stopped talking to me. I have yet to know why...but I can deal. I dont have to know....that is why I never really intended on giving it to him. I was just going to write down my little ramble and be happy...but unfortunately....jennifer found out. Heh, immediately that plan was down the drain. Yea, so I take jennifer to her grandmother's house. Go inside for a while, amazed at how many curse words she shouted right in front of her grandmother....my grandmother would have cussed me out....told my grandfather so that he can lay a guilt trip on me, told my mom so she can sneer at me, and tell my father so that he could smite me down.....it would have been bad. But yea, jennifer talked me into calling Brian to see if he wanted anything to eat, which he didn't, but I talked to him for a while, and of course jennifer managed to tell him about the letter that really wasn't intended for him...but it doesn't matter. Hehe, I let jennifer read it, and I got it back from her b/c it had stuff concerning her in it...hehe. But yea, I kinda felt bad for taking up Brian's time when he didn't want to talk to me anyway. Oh well...I stayed and chatted w/jennifer for a while...then came home to eat a salad. Mom, the kids, and I are currently watching "them", hehe...classic. Well, anyway...I'm gonna go now....tired of typing, and I need to listen to a new song to get this one out of my head, hehe.....
Much Love,
DeAnna