11.19.2004
so I was walking out of school, and I went a way that I'd end up seeing the guy, you know which one I'm talking about, and Jennifer was walking with me, right? So, as we go to walk by him, I just kinda look down, and start to walk by, but jennifer stops me, nudges me, looks at him and is like "WAVE, IT CANT HURT!!!!" So I, being totally nervious, upset, mad, and childishly giddy at the same time, wave quickly, say a swift hi, and walk on. then proceed to hit her with my purse, turn the corner, and lean against the wall, regaining my composure. She doesn't understand how it is for me. It has been so long since I've even been able to look him in the eyes...and today I got to....but...it was....forced, on his part. I've had to work so hard on being able to walk by and not say anything, he holds this sort of gravitational force thing for me, I am automatically attracted to where he is at, and I had to control it, and then jennifer ruins it. I dont want him to be forced to talk to me, I hant him to talk to me b/c he WANTS to, and now he doesn't...but now I have to go, jennifer called and needs her stuff out of my car...until later...
DeAnna
DeAnna
# posted by DeAnna : 4:39 PM
